Hello,
Back in January I made some videos and have finally posted one of them on youtube.
If you are interested in viewing it here is the link: My First Experiment with the Teachings of Divine Truth: Being Truthful
Eloisa’s YouTube Channel link to playlists here.
Reflections on the birthing process
In my experience birth is a natural process that ‘just happens’ if you let it. When I say ‘just happens’ the inbuilt intelligence (instinct) in my body took over during the birthing process and did what it was designed to do, have a baby. This was the same with pregnancy, I had sex and then a whole lot of amazing processes happened that allowed a baby human’s physical body to grow and develop inside my body for 9 months.
God did the designing and creating and I experienced His incredible handiwork and still do not understand exactly how everything was created, developed and happened.
Things have been getting real with Pete and I over the last few years. I mean real as in how they have been all along but we didn’t want to see or feel, preferring to remain in a delusion of our own creation rather than seeing the relationship from God’s Perspective.
The children are moving out of the house and into their first homes (a tent set up) tomorrow. Each child has purchased a tent setup that will be their home until they go through an attitude shift (an emotional change) in regards to caring for the shared environment and love of others (in basic terms clean and care for their personal and shared living environment and not expect others (mum in this case) to do everything for them, and to see how their choices and actions are causing unloving situations in their lives).
Historically I haven’t been a deep thinker or logical analyzer of my feelings, thoughts and actions, instead preferring to skim the surface and find evidence that supports my flawed belief systems. This is a place that I have been easily influenced without paying too much attention to who or what the influence was.
When I was 24 years old I decided it was time to have kids. It was a compulsive feeling that I needed children and I needed to be a mother no matter what.
Before I had children I had the false belief that having children would make me a ‘real woman’.
I thought being a mum was my only role, purpose and destiny in life. I thought that once I was married and had children my purpose as a woman would be fulfilled and life would be perfect like in a hallmark movie. I believed that somehow having children would magically fix everything in my life and make me feel great.
