The Great Experiment or the ‘God Game’*

Posted on November 17, 2013 by Eloisa

I want to tell you about the greatest, most beautiful, life changing experiment that I am giving a go.

It is called The Great Experiment. And it is truly GREAT!!! This experiment will rock your world if you engage it with sincerity.

I first heard about this experiment from Jesus. You can try it all by yourself where ever you are in the entire world or spirit world!

This is what you do:

You ask God for some love – as a feeling, with your soul or what you might call a ‘heart felt desire’ or a longing/prayer, like when you really, really want something and you feel it.

Even if you don’t believe in God you can still try the experiment.

The experiment requires you to be truthful with yourself and with God.

So you might not believe in God, or you might think or believe all manner of things about God, this is okay you can still ask God for love and this process will work through the issues that we have with God. Now when you ask you need to be sincere and it needs to be a feeling, so asking from your soul or your heart if you like. Mere intellectual thought and head asking is not going to work very well. But you can try this too to find out for yourself.

Over the last few months I have begun to actually ask God for love (over and over again**), it began as recorded below:

‘Hi God, okay so I don’t think I am that lovable and I don’t know if I actually believe you are going to give me any love but if you do have Love to give me, like I have heard you have, could I have some? Please? (I thought being polite would help, smile, it also highlighted some injuries & fears I have)

I waited.

Nothing.

I said it again.

Nothing.

I got up huffily and went and got busy for a while and then it dawned on me, ‘Ahhh I don’t receive love very well from most people or I am pretty demanding and expectant about it, I have issues with love so I probably need to take a look at my beliefs and feelings about love if I am going to actually be able to receive Love from God’.

After discovering I have issues & blocks to Love I discovered*** that I also have issues with God and so I needed to firstly find out what I really believed and felt about God. As I am longing for God’s Love, both God and Love are worth investigating about how I feel about them so I asked myself some questions.

Self Reflection Questions I wrote down:

What are my beliefs about love?
Do I want to love?
Do I want to be loved?
How does God love?
What is love?
What is God’s love like? (obviously I don’t know personally, so what have I heard about it so far from reliable sources – like Jesus, Mary, friends I know who have experienced God’s Love and people in General who seem to have a love for God and who feel God is loving – I used these as a starting point, I am going to need to feel this out for myself but I needed some positive things to begin with)
What do I see as Love and is it really love?
What do my parents see as love?
What do my friends -past & present – see as love?
What does society and the world at large in general feel about love?

What are my beliefs about God?
What do I really feel God is like?
What have I been told God is like from parents, friends, school, religion, society in general and the world at large?
What is my actual real view of God as I am now, not things I have heard but what do I really feel about God and Love right at this time?
There are heaps more questions that have come up and some I have investigated and some I still need to feel about. Often I revisit the questions as often when I intellectually answer them they are quite different to when I emotionally answer them.

I Borrowed Questions (Mary’s reflection Questions):

“What beliefs do I have about God that stop me asking for the Love?”
“What beliefs do I have about myself that stop me asking for the Love?”
“What stops me longing for the Love all the time?”

Then I tried the experiment again, and again and again and each time I have discovered something about myself through the process.

This began as an intellectual exercise. It is growing into a feeling exercise. A first hand experience of my own, and I reckon that is what it is about, experiencing it for yourself. Not taking anyones word for it but giving it a go for yourself because you want to.

I hit points where I get frustrated as I am not getting any Love – due to blocking it out, and I feel like I am useless and wasting my time and that maybe it is all a charade. I have had self pitying tantrum cries about that and reflected back and this is what I noticed:

Since longing for God’s Love I have noticed more things about myself in the shortest amount of time in comparison to the rest of my life and have also begun getting memories, first intellectually and then with feelings and emotions attached to them a few days after the initial remembering.
Since longing for God’s Love I am seeing that a lot of the issues I thought were God’s problems or others problems are actually about myself and feelings within myself creating them.

Reflecting on this I began to feel excited because longing for God’s Love is exposing all the things that are standing in the way of me being close to God (& ironically to others also). I feel like I have a whole heap of blocks to God and each time I ask for God’s Love I find out something more about myself and the blocks/false beliefs/fears/addictions etc I am holding onto and valuing more than an open heart ready to receive Love.

So I am figuring that longing for God’s love is the fast track and I don’t have to try, it has relieved some of the pressure I place on myself. something comes up every time I sincerely long for the Love and it feels like no effort on my part to find it out or know it, it is just immediately there, instantly. If it doesn’t happen that way now I ask myself if I was actually wanting to know or just intellectually thinking I did.

I am finding now that often I will ask for God’s love and a memory will come and I will have tears, this is also exciting for me as I am re-learning how to feel and re connect to myself having been disassociated for such a long period of time and having been terrified to feel any of my own emotions. I still am afraid of my emotions but I am beginning to check these fears out as well and get specific with my fears rather than just have a general fear cloud that I keep my head stuck in.

I am arrogant and resistant to God and God’s process. I want, and weirdly believe, that I am some how safer and able to protect myself. I realise, intellectually, this is not true and is proved not true so many times each day to me. I have been opening up to more feelings of being sexually abused and I have realised that I am not going to be able to work through those feelings fully without God and His Love, I need God and I find that scary as I don’t want to need anyone. I also have been really demanding of God’s Love and had to realise this about myself as well as wanting God to do the process for me instead of me taking responsibility and wanting to feel through the issues inside of myself with God just along side of me.

Longing for God’s love is one seriously cool adventure and though I can’t say I am always enthusiastic about seeing my true self because I still judge her, I am excited in reflecting back at how EVERY time I have longed for God’s love I have learnt something new, realised something, or opened up to something either immediately or very shortly afterwards (the next day or so). The changes so far in my experiment seem small but they are real, they are mine, and I have even caught myself getting excited about God and wanting to tell people about the Great Experiment, smile.

I haven’t been overwhelmed by God’s Love – yet, but I don’t feel this is because God isn’t wanting to Love me now, I feel this is due to my will and that is keeping God’s Love from me.

I wrote this to encourage you to give this experiment a go. To dive in and try the experiment and keep trying it, self reflecting as you go.

The whole point of the ‘Divine Love Path’ or ‘The Way’ is our relationship with God & opening our soul to receive God’s Love. I feel that I have missed that point and wanted it to be about all sorts of other things. But God & God’s Love is key in this process and experimenting with longing for God’s Love is spectacular. It is exposing, it is immediate – when I want it, and it is real. It is taking an action and growing my desire and will.

It is the only thing that has actually worked and the experiment is so simple and so easy. I have some fears and terrors that I perceive as large and I am realising that if I don’t have a relationship with God I am unlikely to actually feel through those terrors, in fact I know I wont as I haven’t done so yet. So I am experimenting with growing my relationship with God and I will see if that makes a difference with my desire to actually go through the emotions I feel most afraid to feel.

Have fun and enjoy the beautiful process God created for us to become at one with Him!

*******

More interesting Information on the Great Experiment:

Personal Footnotes:

* We were speaking with a group of kids in the spirit world and they called it the ‘God Game’ after they had tried it and they wanted to know why everyone didn’t know about this and why everyone wasn’t playing the ‘God Game’

** I didn’t actually try it for ages because I didn’t think I was good enough or loving enough. I thought if I wasn’t perfect and really great then how could I possibly be given any love, I don’t feel loved by my parents so how could God love me if they don’t? I believed that out of all God’s children I am the one unlovable one, so I just didn’t ask for love instead I tried really hard to be better and more loving. It hasn’t worked which indicates to me I must have something off inside of me, and so I need to investigate that.

*** I had been told this previous but what I found is that when I actually took the time myself and sat down and longed for the Love it was through my own first hand experience that I knew I had blocks to God and Love and I couldn’t pass them off as easily as some moments before.

The Great Experiment:

Interestingly enough I came across a really great transcript and talk Jesus and Mary gave in 2011 while writing this post called:

20110507 Relationship with God: Getting to Know God (given in Melbourne, Australia)
I cannot recommend it enough!! If link doesn’t work it can be found on the Divine Truth Website: http://www.divinetruth.com> downloads>ebooks>Relationship with God: Getting to Know God>PDF>

Also another called: Why we Resist God and there are a whole heap more I am now reading through.

From Mary’s blog:

In the Padgett messages we hear from spirits who show perseverance in their prayer life.

For example, Riddle shares:

And, when I learned that prayer was the only way to this Love, and saw you praying for me with all your heart and in great earnestness, I commenced to pray also; but I must confess that my prayers were not accompanied with much faith. But I continued to pray, and every night when you prayed for me and for the many others who were with you praying, I tried to exercise all the faith possible and prayed for more faith.

This continued for some time, and one day your grandmother……. She assured me that if I would only try to believe, and pray to God to help me believe, He would answer my prayers; and I would soon find that with my earnest efforts, faith would come to me, and with faith would come this Love into my heart, and with this Love would come happiness and joy.

So I listened to her, and tried to believe that what she told me must be true, and that she was interested in me and desired only my happiness. I continued to pray, …..

At last, light came to me, and with it, such an inflowing of Love as I never dreamed could exist, either in the earth or in the spirit world. But it came to me and I felt as if I were a new spirit, and such happiness came as I never experienced before.

The Great Experiment clearly requires patience and perseverance as we develop real faith.

The Greatest Experiment – Letter from Jesus

Posted on November 17, 2013 by Eloisa

The Greatest Experiment

If the physical universe is striving towards order, could not it also be the case that the other parts of the universe, not seen by man, the spiritual and soul parts, the other dimensions proven by mathematics to exist, are also striving towards complete order and harmony, not just in a physical context, but also in a moral and spiritual context?

Would it not make sense that if we desire to know the truths about these things as yet unseen by the eyes of most people in the material world, our highest priority should be to find out how to go about contacting the Source of such things, the Creator of this universe?

To contact Him, all we need do is have a soul longing for His Love, and, if that longing is sincere and we have a desire to experience emotions, then our Father’s Love will flow into us, and we shall feel it. Finding God is simplicity itself, so simple in fact that the majority of mankind, mortals and spirits, overlook the only method we have of ever finding Divine Truth, which is made possible by two things; the sincere desire of a man to seek for and feel God and His Love (which we call Prayer), and the overwhelming Passion of God to give all His Children His Love, and have all of His Children come to know Him and experience the joy and happiness of Living in His Love.

This is the Greatest Experiment, and when any person tries it, the experiment often begins tentatively, but ends in complete certainty. God is Reality, and the Love and Truth that comes from Him is Real. When we try the Greatest Experiment, we at that time also begin to live in Reality.

So my brothers and sisters, live in Reality, in our Father’s Love, seek for it, and desire it above all else. Seek first His Love, and all the other things will be added to you.

Although the contents of this message may be well known to you, I hope that you have enjoyed a reconsideration of this information.

With love from your brother,

Jesus

* Borrowed from Mary’s blog on the Great Experiment. I agree and am posting this so you can actually read what Jesus said rather than just my own version and experiences. I always feel first hand information is valuable and doesn’t get lost in translation or emotional translation, smile. Links to more information below also.

The Greatest Experiment an letter written by Jesus – full version go to link here or below. http://www.divinetruth.com/PDF/People/JesusMary/Jesus%20The%20Greatest%20Experiment.pdf

The Greatest Thing In All The World…

Posted on November 13, 2013 by Eloisa

A message from Solomon, received by James Padgett, 20th April, 1916

What is the greatest thing in all the world?

Prayer and faith on the part of mortals; and Love – the Divine Love – on the part of God. The latter is waiting, and the former causes it to enter into the souls of men.

No other truths are so great and momentous to men.

Let what I say sink deep into your memory, and try the experiment. I know you do try, but try and then try and never cease trying. Love will come to you and with It faith, and then knowledge and then ownership.

I could write for a long time, yet, but I must not as you are tired.

So with my love and blessings, I will say good-night, and may the Father’s Love take possession of you.

Your brother in Christ,

SOLOMON

For more information on Receiving God’s Love, The Great Experiment or the Padgett messages visit either: www.divinetruth.com or http://mary.divinetruth.com/category/the-great-experiment/

Re-Visit

Posted on October 16, 2013 by Eloisa

I have been having some disillusionment and doubts come up today. I revisited a post Mary Magdalene wrote some time ago and have found it so helpful in actions I can take to get me closer to what it is underneath rather than stewing in it. The Padgett Message also posted today is really helpful also if feeling ‘stuck’.

Thought I would let you know about. If you have a desire to check it our or re-visit it,
Click on the link below:

http://mary.divinetruth.com/2013/03/20/moving-through-the-four-ds-the-great-experiment-series/

A Great Padgett Message

Posted on October 16, 2013 by Eloisa

12 Jan 1915

Helen: Confirms writing and is a go-between for Taggart and Harvey.

I am here, Helen:

You must not write to these spirits as we have told you – Yes he said that he knew you on earth and wanted you to help him. I see that he has gone to seek Mr. Taggart, but I don’t think that he will be much helped. Yes you may be right, you certainly have a way of accomplishing things. I never thought of that. Well, I will go and see if I can find them, and make them come here, and write you what I hear.

They are here:

Mr. Taggart tells Mr. Harvey that you told him that the way to get out of this condition of darkness and unhappiness is to pray to God, for His Love to enter into their hearts, and believe that it will, that if he will only be willing to have it come into their hearts, it will, but that he has not yet been able to believe. But Mr. Harvey says, that when he was on earth, he was a strict Catholic and that he often prayed something like that and attended to his duties, and even when he made his will, he left some money for the priests to pray him out of purgatory, but all their prayers together have not helped him, and he don’t believe that there is any God to whom a person can pray and from whom he can get relief – so that when you talked that way to Taggart, you were merely trying to mislead him as the priests did him. But Mr. Taggart says: George you are wrong there, for our friend does not merely say pray, but he prays with us and for us and seems to believe with all his heart that there is a God and that he will answer prayer. So I am not so certain that there is not a God and one who answers prayers, I am going to try to pray and believe myself and I advise you to do likewise.

Mr. Harvey says:

Taggart it is all nonsense, and if that is the only way we can get out of this condition, we never will be any better than we now are – so you need not tell me of God and prayer.

Mr. Taggart says:

George, I have seen the effect of this prayer on some spirits and I know that they have been made more beautiful and happy, and even Mackay is commencing to say that he sees light ahead and has felt some strange influences come into his heart as he said a prayer, which he promised our friend to say. Now what is the use in your being pig headed and say that there is no God, when you don’t know anything about it. I tell you though, there must be something in this belief or I would not see so many happy spirits around us. Be a man who can keep his mind open to what he sees and the reasons therefore may come to you. Let us not become hardheaded in this matter. As you were so easy to believe on earth what your priests told you about purgatory and the hells and the necessity for you to pay for prayers to help you out of purgatory, why can’t you try to believe a little when the same thing is told you without your having to pay for it? I am going to try my best to believe and if you know what is best for you, you will follow suit.

Mr. Harvey, says:

Taggart, what is the use of being fooled twice, once is enough for me. Priests are here with me and suffering more than I am, and when I ask them why don’t they pray themselves out of purgatory, they say: “To hell with prayer.” Now how am I to believe anything that is told me about prayer or God?

Mr. Taggart says:

George, Let your priests and their sufferings and their cursings pass out of your mind, and listen to me for a moment. When I came over, I was in great darkness and despair, and believed that there was no possible help for me and that I must remain in the condition of darkness that I found myself in, but one day I was called to meet our friend by his father, and when I came where he was I found that Mackay was there also, and then we exchanged greetings, and wished each other happiness. But I found that there was no happiness for me and I told our friend that I was anything but happy; and he said believe in God’s Love and you will soon be, and I said, who is God and what is His Love; and then he explained to Mackay what that love is, and I heard it all; and then I tackled him and told him that God was a myth and prayer was nothing but the wish of a man and went no higher than his mind.

But he would not agree with me and we had an argument right then and there, and I tell you that while he did not convince me that there was a God or any efficacy in prayer, yet it made me think and wonder if I could be wrong and he right; and before I left him, not only Mackay, but myself promised that we would try an experiment in the nature of prayer and we have been doing it many times since, and I tell you, that while I am not yet convinced that there is a God, or that prayer to Him will take us out of our awful conditions of suffering and darkness, yet I have felt many strange sensations, and at times, some little feeling of happiness, which I had never felt before; so you can see, I would be a fool not to try and get this relief, if I possibly can. And I want to tell you George, that if you are willing to make the effort with us we will be glad to have you come. Of course you need not believe if you don’t want to, but just come and join with us in our experiment and you will soon realize that there is something operating that you cannot account for. Mackay is now feeling very much happier he says; and I believe that he will soon believe in this God and his love that our friend told us about; at any rate he is commencing to improve in his appearance, and I attribute it to trying the experiment I told you of. So what is the use in holding back and saying that there is no God and no love that can get you out of your condition of which you complain so much, when by the exercise of a little reason and will, you may be on the right track to salvation. Of course I don’t know just what this may lead to, but I have determined to follow it to a conclusion, and you will be a big fool if you don’t go with me.

Mr. Harvey said:

Taggart, you were a pretty level-headed man when on earth, and required to have things proved to you, and were really a stubborn man as I know, and what you say impresses me; but you will have to show me what you mean by this experiment. You have not told me what you mean, and of course, until you do, I can’t follow you.

Mr. Taggart says:

George, it is a very simple thing. Mackay and I told our friend that we did not believe in God or in his love or in any saviour, and he said; you need not, to do what I want you to try. He said, while there is a God and His love which is the only thing that can save you from sin and make you happy men, yet that God does not force that love on you or make you believe in Him; and only when you are willing to receive that love of your own volition will it come to you. So you see he said it all depends upon your own will, whether you will have that love and the happiness which flows from it or not, and if you will only will that you may believe in God if there be one, and that you may receive that love if such there be, then if you will, will this and say to God, if there be one, that you will that this love shall come into your heart and that this belief shall come into your mind, and repeat this with all earnestness and will, you will find that after a little while, this belief will come to you, and this love will come into your heart. So Mackay and I are desiring to try anything to get out of our condition, and believing that our friend would not intentionally deceive us, promised to say these things, and in that way pray to a God that we did not believe in; and we have continued to repeat these thoughts ever since; and I must confess to you that some strange change or sensation has come to me. What it is, I don’t just know, but it is there; and I am determined to continue in this qualified prayer, until I know one way or the other what the result will be. So you see, George, if it does no good, it can do no harm, and if you have desire enough to get out of your condition, you will try the experiment.

Mr. Harvey says:

Well Taggart, there may be something in what you say and I am willing to go with you; for as you say, if it does no good, it can do no harm. So let me hear again what I am to say and I will commence.

Then Mr. Taggart repeated the prayer and they left.

You are too wonderful in your way of getting the attention of spirits who are in darkness to turn their thoughts to things that may help them. And I am so glad that you are helping these spirits, even though you did let Mr. Harvey write. But who knows, maybe such interferences are intended for some good purposes.

So my darling, I love you with all my heart and soul, and must stop writing.

Yes, I will, and will try to talk to him sometime when the proper occasion comes.

So goodnight, my own darling Ned.

HELEN

Note: References message from Harvey (PJE19150112B).

Index: PJE19150112C
Author: Helen Padgett/Taggart/Harvey
Receiver: James E. Padgett
Location: Washington D.C.
Date: 12 Jan 1915
Sources: True Gospel, Vol IV, page 244

Reptile Heaven Project Update – 11 Months on

Posted on October 11, 2013 by Eloisa

Lizard, Reptile Heaven

This beautiful lizard found on the road was introduced to Reptile Heaven this morning.

As well as sighting more big lizards there are lots of skinks and smaller dudes around the place too.

In the image of the lizard below you can also see some stinging nettles in the background. These have just started coming up and were in the mulch we brought in. We will leave them to do their thing and suspect they will have a couple of cycles and then other plants will come up to do their healing in the soil. We will keep you posted with the cycles and findings from this fun experiment!

Lizard, Reptile Heaven

Below is an update of Reptile Heaven 11 months on from ‘Summerfest 2012 Project’. Press on link below to see before images click here. If you open the old post in a different window browser you can put them side by side and see the changes, it is pretty exciting what happens in 11 months!

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, the top pond looking down

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, reptile palace

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, mid section, lots of weeds coming up to remedy the soil from the mulch that was brought in

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, Mr Lizard

Peeking out from the logs, Mr Lizard a local resident enjoys reptile heaven’s habitat and housing opportunities

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, fertility system, added green waste. Just keep on adding abundantly!

A red belly black snake and an eastern brown snake have been sighted in the garden near reptile heaven. This year there are many more snakes around. One was sited mid winter -at the Octoberfest site- sunning itself on the top of a living system. This we see is a great sign along with bigger lizards moving into the area (see image up top of this post).

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, reptile home

: Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, bottom pond and wattles

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, Lomandra grass

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, The hedge that was dying is now flourishing with the mulch put next to it

This hedge was dying. Susan and Michael put a whole heap of matter on the top side and the hedge is flourishing and flowering this year attracting heaps of bees and spiders.

Spider

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, big rock at bottom of RH

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, Bottom Pond

We haven’t had much rain so the lower pond is fairly empty (see image below) but the lomandra is growing up nice and bushy and the wattles are going really well other than the ones snapped off and attacked by the deer.

Reptile Heaven, 11 months on, lower pond

Visitors

Posted on October 11, 2013 by Eloisa

A friendly visitor who was in the garden this morning.

Above is a deer we photographed out the kids window a couple of mornings ago. We thought he could be a potential lawn mower – though we feel he is rather un-discerning between grass and garden at the moment, especially newly planted watermelons, smile.

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Over the Winter this year the deer and the kangaroos have been coming in closer and over this time have been causing a lot of destruction. Often emotionally we are still allowing of and open to attack and the creatures are demonstrating this to us through the Law of Attraction.

Below are some images of some of the damage done by the deer and kangaroos to various plants and three year old trees near our homes.

Deer & Kangaroo Damage

Pete recently had a ‘chat’ to Mr Roo in the orchard and the damage seems to have slowed down somewhat. Pete asked Mr Roo why he needed to destroy all these beautiful plants when there was so much lovely grass for him to eat around. Mr Roo and the Deer seem to be often wilfully destroying plants without need, they are not eating them, it is just destruction.

We know we are open emotionally to attack and at a soul level accepting of attack. Due to having this opening we are also open to spirit influence and attack. The spirits influence the animals to destroy things we have created and love as a form of blackmail and attack upon us.

This is a perfect Law of Attraction for us to heal the opening we have in our souls to attack and blackmail. It is also showing us that we are now in a place where our environment is reflecting our collective soul condition rather than ‘seemingly’ being ‘better’, due to having a whole heap of spirits ‘help’ us out. Now we are not doing what the spirits want us to do, they are getting grumpy and blackmailing us in an attempt to get us to go back to our ‘old ways’ so they can control us again. So though it seems (and often feels horrible to us), it is a good reflection of where we are truly at, at a soul level, and that what is happening on the property is attracted due to our own soul condition and not from the influence of others.

Deer & Kangaroo Damage

In our experience we are finding that it is actually best to feel how we feel when all these wonderful projects are attacked, feel how angry, hurt, disappointed we are, how unfair it feels, how we feel we are trying to help the earth and then it just get’s destroyed, and how so very, very sad we feel that someone or something wants to destroy what we desire to create. There are a whole heap of emotions that come up within us each time and when we are humble to these and allow our feelings to be expressed the actions in our environment, the law of attraction changes. When we don’t grieve and feel what ever it is we feel, then it all ramps up and gets heaps worse. The little ripple turns into a tsunami. It is not just one plant but ALL of them. Not just one branch but a whole tree that is gone in seconds.

Our surroundings are highlighting the injuries within us that we need to look at and heal within out souls. We can take huge measure of effort and guard everything up try and keep the animals out, we have in the past gone as far as killing them to stop them from destroying things. BUT we are finding that all these things are merely managing and trying to dictate to our surroundings in an attempt to avoid the Law of Attraction and the gifts God is trying to help us heal with.

This also relates to our every day life. How often do we have what we deem ‘small accidents’ or ‘nothings’, example cutting your finger while cooking, a cut while shaving. Jamming your finger somehow or burning yourself. Ant’s in you kitchen, mice in the walls, (they may just be hungry or need a home*).

Everything that happens to us is created by our own soul and is an attraction to highlight errors, beliefs, emotions within us that are out of harmony with Love and need to heal in order for us grow.

The next time a bird’s attacking your window or pooping on your windscreen you have an opportunity to go ‘hmmm this is a law of attraction event’ and feel how you feel about it then and there in the moment. That is an act of self Love.

* All creatures need the basics – food, water, shelter, oxygen, so you could feed the ants near where they enter your home instead of killing them, make living systems out in the garden so the creatures don’t need to live in and eat your house. We have taken so much away and leave the land so stark that many animals have nowhere to go, nothing to eat and no habitat. Take the time to give to God’s creations and without effort abundance will occur.

Softening…

Posted on October 11, 2013 by Eloisa

I feel this is a beautiful quality that often gets a bad wrap.

I have noticed how often I have heard people being condemned for being emotionally ‘soft’, seen as ‘weak’. How often I/we have been praised for being emotionally ‘strong’ and opinionated (read not feeling my real feelings, numb, not expressing real feelings, stoic, etc). I notice that in Australasian Culture there are many sayings such as ‘go hard or go home’, ‘no pain, no gain’, ‘don’t be a pussy’ (I either think of vagina’s or fluffy cats), ‘toughen up’, ‘tough love’, ‘harden up, go drink a glass of concrete’, ‘don’t be a girl’ (I am one so this has always been a bit disconcerting as it has always felt like there is something wrong with me and half the world’s population)… There are so many and in the past I have either tried really hard to live up to these to gain approval or I have rebelled and been angry about it to avoid feeling the grief, sadness, loss and lack of emotional softness in my environment and self. If I am honest with myself I am really sad about the fact that ‘softness’ and being ‘soft’ is so crapped upon.

I have had some events in my life over the past year that have highlighted just what it feels like to be around people who are ‘hard’ and also had feedback on what it feels like to be on the receiving end of ‘hardness’. I actually allowed myself to FEEL what it feels like. It doesn’t feel good, often accompanied with judgement and a lack of compassion, lack of understanding and absence of love.

I was brought up in a house of ‘strong’ women. I was brought up in a place where harshness was ‘normal’. I didn’t even realise just how harsh and hard my environment was until recently.

I have locked my heart up and been hard hearted. I am beginning to feel the heart of stone that I have in my chest and am beginning to wonder what a heart of flesh would feel like.

A soft, supple, compassionate, real loving, Open heart.

That, I feel, could be beautiful!

So I just wanted to ‘talk’ with you and mention that it is worth softening, to grow the desire to soften: to be softer with self, others, God, my emotions, all the experiences that are within me, it helps.

In my experience:

Being hard hurts, me and others

Being hard puts up walls and creates barriers

Emotional hardness creates separation

Emotional hardness creates judgment

Emotional hardness comes from repressed fear and rage,

Emotional hardness causes pain and isolation

Emotional hardness creates a jail that you convince yourself is a ‘safe’ place when in fact it is dangerous, you can’t feel when you are hard, not even yourself.

I feel I have softened a little, beginning with intellectual decision and sincere prayer which has ended up with changes in my heart. It was just a gradual thing that happened and I could actually feel some compassion I reckon for the first time around some issues. It has been through being treated badly and with hardness – feeling this – and having attracted genuine love and kindness into my life (feeling the comparison of these two feelings), that I have realised what it feels like to be around me when I am emotionally hard. I have seen in others what I am myself. It was confronting and a yucky feeling to own that I have been like that to others and I thought it was okay, ‘normal’ even.

I have seen the effects it had on those who I met and treated harshly, it is not love. I have noticed that what we are exposed to as small children and in the environments we live becomes ‘normal’, no matter how harsh, scary and violent it is. I see that while we remain conditioned and holding onto these crazy so called ‘norms’ we cannot feel what love actually feels like, and we act out what we feel to be acceptable. The process of feeling how it really is has caused me to question a lot of things. I have often prayed for more sensitivity and as it comes I see the stark contrast between what I see as normal and what I am learning about God and God’s love and Way.

I was writing to a friend the other day and have included some of my thoughts below from the email I sent as I feel they relate to this topic:

“I realise that when I am ‘hard’ and judgmental (read don’t want to feel or even own my fear, don’t want to feel my feelings and want to change others instead of myself) that instead of opening up an opportunity to heal it actually closes, shuts down and hinders healing or even realisations in self or another. I see how it is through owning my own feelings and lovingly or even just kindly talking to someone else about things noticed or felt that this can create an opportunity to heal. I see how fear creates such pain, judgement, criticism and distance between my soul and another soul (I also see how I have wanted this in an effort to feel ‘safe’. I don’t feel safe one little bit).

I feel the lack of connection, pain and fear etc between women & women and women & men is a source of pain and sadness for many souls. The relationships we have had with our mothers and fathers, other women growing up have not set ‘healthy’ or loving precedents of how to relate in love, or even be truly kind with others. For me I am terrified of judgement and generally avoid interactions where this might happen at all costs where possible or placate something chronic to get people to ‘like’ me and be nice to me, sad smile, or just throw fear or rage their way and project ‘don’t get angry at me, don’t make me feel afraid and I will do what you want’. I feel I have used this as an ‘excuse’ to avoid or treat others badly. I am realising this isn’t the basis for and doesn’t build true, beautiful, close, growing friendships. It is also not based on Truth as God sees it.

I am starting to feel if we can actually heal each other with kindness and love rather than harsh words and critical gestures this would be a beautiful way forward. I don’t feel I am there yet, my old patterns and addictions come up often especially when I feel uncomfortable and afraid, but I can see now the effects of these states and the pain that both women and men are in (including me) is a result of the actions we each choose to take.

I am realising how much and how many people I push away due to fear.

It is exciting I reckon how change is possible. I have so often felt that no-one changes and no-one becomes different. I am loving how this belief is being challenged at the moment and I am being shown how change is possible and that unloving actions can be healed and even intention begins a desire to heal!”

I cannot say how beautiful it is in the soft moments and the contrast to emotional hardness is very noticeable! I wish you well with softening into what ever the Law of Attraction brings you to heal your soul and become at one with God!

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* I am still grappling with being in a place of softness all the time on every issue, I am not there yet. I have gotten emotionally hard over the last weeks due to wanting to avoid my terrors and this is what has highlighted (or glaring showed up) the difference between softening and shutdown/emotional hardness.

Inspiring People: Marla Spivak – Why Bees Are Disappearing

Posted on September 21, 2013 by Eloisa

We thought this talk was interesting and an inspiration to go out and plant a variety of native flowering seeds or plants to your area which can provide food all year round for bees and insects. It is very common in Australia to have only Spring and Summer flowering plants when in fact there are different species that flower at different times in order to provide food all year round.

Native flowering plants to the region of where you live are going to be the most beneficial and will help re-establish micro-climates and eco-systems that have been steadily decimated.

If we plant an abundance and variety of necter and pollen producing plants then we would be on our way to creating a very different environment to the one we have now. At the moment we force small creatures, birds, organisms, insects etc to have to travel long distances, with increased stress and lower breeding abundance due to having cleared out many of the essential smaller flowering flora species.

Without bees and insects there would not be a single flowering plant or any food on the planet. I feel often we desire to remain unaware of our impact on the smaller creatures, especially insects, many of whom we view as ‘pests’ or we are afraid of when actually we rely on these intelligent creatures for our very survival. We need to stop eradicating and begin prolifically encouraging as much insect life and as diverse insect life as we possibly can if we truly want to re-establish and help regenerate healthy fully functioning eco-systems.

In Australia there are so many beautiful flowering trees, bushes, shrubs, flowers and ground covers to find out about and explore which can provide food and habitat for all kinds of wondrous intelligent life to flourish.

Have a lovely day, and we encourage you to observe the beautiful smaller creatures and find out the incredible roles they play in the existence and survival of our planet (if you desire to, smile).

Divine Truth Seminars in August & September

Posted on August 29, 2013 by Eloisa

Jesus and Mary, Seminar at Murgon QLD, August, 2013

* This post has been updated

Hello Everyone!

We are excited to let you know that Jesus and Mary will be doing two Q & A sessions (Question and Answer) in the ‘Orange Room’ (below and diagonally opposite the woodshed) on Saturday 31st August & 7th September, 2013, both commencing at 1pm.

Everyone is welcome and we look forward to seeing those of you who desire to join us!

For more information on Jesus, Mary and Divine Truth please press the following link that will take you to the Divine Truth website.

See Events page on this blog for more detailed information about the Q&A Session.

Jesus presenting a Seminar at Murgon Aug 2013

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Divine Truth Seminars in August & September