Positive Benefits

Posted on October 26, 2016 by Eloisa

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I notice that Jesus & Mary always help us to see and understand the benefits of applying Principle’s of God’s Truth to our lives and I am seeing how this helps to inspire personal desire to try stuff in my own life.

This blog is just to share how awesome I feel it is when I do have a go at applying Principle’s of God’s Truth to my life, or even have an intention to do so! (I am presently going through an excited patch of discovery, smile).

A few of the benefits I have discovered of experimenting with honouring God’s Truth, having an intention to live in harmony with God’s Laws and aspiring to Love as God Loves are as follows:

You learn HEAPS about yourself (your whole soul – as you open up to it), others, children, God; actually as much and about as many subjects as you are open to at any given time

You grow to accept yourself more, especially if you have compassion for yourself. You grow to feel happier, you have more energy, you want to explore and discover more, you find out things about yourself that were ‘forgotten’, not realized yet, or squashed that you love and enjoy doing. You feel the contrast between this state and living in fears, anger etc so it becomes a shorter time to recognise what’s going on.

Desire grows and there are SO many exciting possibilities and things to do that it is matter of prioritizing to fit them all in

Even when you are emotionally challenged you begin to realise that it is an opportunity to change or try something different

As I begin to become more sensitive I am seeing that physical & emotional pain is within me all the time and that releasing it is a relief. (Still areas that I am very challenged by and in denial about)

If I just stick to God’s Truth and Love, amazing things become possible.

You begin to actually learn what love is, and God’s version of love from what I observe is a relief & SUPER lovely, kind, compassionate, gentle, caring, so many qualities that are beautiful. Feeling the difference between God’s opinion of you and the world’s/your parents/others negative opinions of you is intensely sad,

You begin to see things more clearly (this seems to periodically happen and I go ‘wow, I didn’t even know what Jesus & Mary were talking about (I thought I did, but I just didn’t), and this happens over and over again on the same or similar subjects are more awareness grows)

I got some inspiration that God made there to be an infinite amount to learn, but instead of feeling terrified about that all the time, it becomes exciting and a matter of just working through the fears and absorbing everything we possibly can and if we are blocked to doing so finding out why so we can learn more. It is a good thing our souls are made capable of such expansion & potential.

Beginning to trust in God’s Goodness changes your outlook on life remarkably

Your relationship with your partner has the possibility to improve with the possibility for exponential improvement IF you desire that

Your relationship with your kids improves MASSIVELY, I have felt real love for them (at times) which is different to all the addictive demands I have

When Love and Truth become your motivators rather than self interest – this makes for a smoother home life and less angry, violent, conflict between yourself and others

As you become more sensitive you can see more clearly what is going on rather than responding to effects all the time, you begin to look for causes and deal with those, life gets simpler and less exhausting

Lasting, permanent positive change is possible

You don’t have to ‘try’ all the time when you make soul based change, things feel smoother and you either do it or you don’t. Work out why you don’t want to and feel about that, then you probably will want to.

Even having an intention to change brings positive outcomes

Opportunities to Love are EVERYWHERE, we just have to want to see them and act upon them

Truth sets you free – it lessens fear and opens up possibilities that you never previously considered. Things that felt impossible become possible

Being in harmony with God’s Laws you feel more secure & safe & confident because God’s got it covered and you just need to learn the way it all works, and because God is good you begin to trust that God’s got your back and you just need to do the next thing and the next thing and the next thing God presents for you to release, experiment, learn and discover about ( I look forward to this being consistent in my life)

A sense of excitement and wonder at God’s creations and the process God has made for every one of us to engage if we desire to be fully happy and fulfilled and perfected in love as God loves which I can only imagine is AMAZING!!! ( I haven’t personally experienced this process to being at-one-with-God but I suspect that it just gets better and better based on my experience so far)

Seriously, there are just so many benefits that seem to be revealing themselves and the more I experiment the more I suspect that there are only expanding, exponential benefits because so far I haven’t found any disadvantages in anything God does!

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Consistency

Posted on October 18, 2016 by Eloisa

This is a quality worth developing.

I have led a life of inconsistency. Of being swayed every which way and all over the place.

My ‘no’s’ have not meant ‘no’ my ‘yes’ has not meant ‘yes’.

I have not wanted to be consistent with the kids, Pete, myself or in my life in general. I have had to use A LOT of will power to even attempt to be consistent which has taken a lot of effort to maintain for very short periods of time and then I have fallen back into inconsistency again.

Recently I found out some of the reasons why I haven’t wanted to be consistent particularly with Pete and the kids, the main one being if I am consistent with them I have to be consistent with me also otherwise I am being hypocritical.

Truth be told I have WANTED to let them ‘get away’ with stuff and be inconsistent because I have wanted to get away with things myself. I have wanted to have an ‘out’ or an excuse to be unethical if I want to be, or if I feel something is ‘too hard’ I have actually wanted the excuse to sin or be unloving.

The problem with this is that it causes A LOT of negative consequences. It creates a lack of safety, security, certainty. It creates sin and pain emotionally which often ends up becoming chronic physical pain due to avoiding the chronic emotional pain. It also honours fear above love and truth which NEVER turns out well.

I have been experimenting with consistency on and off for a while now, but the last months, I have focused on it far more than previously and I found something really awesome.

When I am consistently truthful and do what Love dictates consistently, my life is enjoyable. I feel pretty good inside and I feel genuinely positive. This is new for me. But what I reckon is happening is that when I honour these things as much as I possibly can in every area that I can see, I am working more in harmony with God’s Laws and even though I have not made the full emotional changes it is improving my life.

There are so many positive benefits for living in Truth, aspiring to Love and working with God’s Laws rather than against them. I aspire to do this consistently rather than periodically.

God is a master of consistency, which means that I need to embrace this quality too.

Consistency is a key ingredient to real happiness.

Healing Experiment: Peritonsillar abscess (Qunisy) & Cool Stuff It Showed Me About God

Posted on September 28, 2016 by Eloisa

In June I had a Peritonsillar abscess or throat abscess also known as a quinsy*.

I have been reflecting on the experience and feel it has helped me to begin to build some faith in God.

Being ill helped me to see a few of the incredible gifts of God’s creations, His perfect design in how he created the human body . The Truth that all physical illnesses are created from a refusal to feel emotional pain.

The exciting bit is that if we are willing to feel emotionally I believe all disease is curable. In fact disease is a feedback system to try and get us to actually feel and work through issues at a soul level rather than a physical one.

So what is a Quinsy?

A peritonsillar abscess or quinsy is a bacterial infection in the throat. It generally involves a pus-filled pocket that forms on or near one of your tonsils. (Thanks to Google for this definition & wikipedia for the image on right side below).

Below is an image of the abscess on the day after the pain had ceased. Unfortunately I didn’t get a picture of its development or when it was at it’s greatest size. It was really interesting, at one point pushing the dangly thing in the middle right over to the other side on a 45 degree angle, (see sketched image lower down).

My throat on the day after it felt better, I hadn’t thought to photograph it till then. At it’s worst it was pushing the hanging down thingy in the middle on a 45 degree angle to the other side

Thanks to Wikipedia for the image

My throat on the day after it felt better, I hadn’t thought to photograph it till then. At it’s worst it was pushing the hanging down thingy in the middle on a 45 degree angle to the other side

Background:

In my 20’s I experienced my first Quinsy. I had a tendency to refuse to emotionally or verbally express how I felt or say aloud my real thoughts and feelings. In the end the denial & emotional build up was so great that I ended up in hospital with the throat abscess being lanced – cut and drained – on an IV drip for fluids and antibiotics for four days and antibiotics and heavy painkillers. A couple of months later it reoccurred a second time and the whole process was repeated.

Symptoms (some):

Pain in throat, neck & face
You may have a super migraine
seriously bad breath
‘hot potato voice’ you can’t talk properly and it sounds all weird like you have a mouthful of something (you do, an abscess).
it is so painful to swallow you end up drooling everywhere or spitting out your own saliva & waking up in a pool of it on the pillow. I had a container of saliva each day to dispose of.
It is hard to sleep due to the pain
swallowing hurts. Taking in fluids or solids hurts so you avoid it if possible.

Present Day:

This time I had a bit of an idea about what I was in for physically. But I set out to experiment with emotionally healing the issues that created it in the first place rather than just physically alleviating the pain. This involved a totally different approach and enabled me to avoid medical intervention and the side effects of prescription drugs.

Motivated by physical pain, which was a result of denied and suppressed emotional pain, (refusing to feel my grief about lack of love of self** and my personal reinforcement of that) I did an experiment.

The ‘experiment’ took 8 days till there was no pain at all and another five for the physical abscess to go down fully. Five or so days were just pain management and trying to get away from the pain, hoping that it would ‘get better’ and 3 or so were more sincere days which really made the difference (they kind of overlapped and I had various experiences and realisations during the other days that contributed to the more emotional ‘productive’ three days).

The most important part of this experiment was making a Will based decision to feel emotionally – whatever it took – and have a sincere go at doing it God’s Way . It was the soul based decision to give it a go God’s Way that created all the positive things that followed.

I experimented with things I had heard in the Divine Truth teachings*** and tested them out for myself. This was a really awesome experience and I absolutely recommend it. I now know for certain through my own experience that denial, refusing to feel how I feel & holding onto emotions makes you sick, causes illness, and releasing emotions (feeling) helps you to heal.

I have added some of my observations and things learned during the illness below. Some feel quite firm in me and some I feel I need more time to allow them to fully sink into my soul****.

I am really grateful to Jesus & Mary for all the information and personal experiences they share publicly about their relationship with God and feeling through emotional issues. I don’t think I would have experimented as readily without their suggestions.

I did a drawing as I didn’t get a photo of the development of the quinsy. It went from nothing to at it’s peak pushing the dangly thingy int he middle to a 45 degree angle to the other side. I didn’t think to get a photo as it hurt so much to open my mouth. Wish I had ‘cos it was really interesting.

The Process of Healing:

The Abscess grew larger and larger until it took up more than half my throat within 24 hours (see above image).

Lesson: Token chats with God, bargaining with God and hoping for ‘magic’ doesn’t make you better, it is just a way to continue to avoid the real issues and highlights the lack of desire for real change. ‘Surviving’ and ‘managing’ pain does not make it go away. Avoiding the real reason why you are ill in the first place causes you to stay sick & in pain.

I tried to manage my pain in all kinds of ways which didn’t work.

I came across a talk 20090801God’s Laws – Laws Governing Love of Self P1 Near the end Jesus speaks about the throat area storing grief. I allowed myself to sob.

Crying and releasing stored emotions is the most effective antibiotic that I have ever experienced. It is a marvel at how crying heals (feeling emotions) physical & emotional pain. I noticed that it involves both emotional and physical release when you really sob

I have a slogan now: “ As long as I keep crying about the real issues, everything is going to be okay”

I reminded myself ‘IF you release the casual emotion the pain will no longer be there’. Lots of things I reminded myself during this experience I didn’t know to be true for certain, I just held onto the possibility that they might be true.

I reminded myself of the Truth, that every time I break God’s Laws there is pain. So I must be breaking God’s Laws, I just needed to find out how I was breaking them & where.

I reminded myself that God was already trying to show me, so logically there must be something in me preventing the recognition of it. I then examined my denial and resistance to knowing God’s Truth. It always comes back to me and where I am out of harmony with Love – which means I can do something about it. YAY!

Lesson: God’s Truth is a relief! God’s Truth is always loving. God’s Truth helps us heal, it is the anecdote to fear. Find the Truth emotionally and you can begin to heal anything physically. Sincerely desiring God’s Truth on any matter highlights the contrast between God’s Love and our own error.

The more I prayed the more I felt about how my unloving choices are making me sick – literally – and how they affect & harm others negatively. Harming myself does not just harm me. It harms my WHOLE soul and it harms others around me, either by educating them that they can treat me badly and get away with it which harms me and them, or by reinforcing people treating others badly.

I had a few more good sobs – real sobbing I found is different to pain management crying. It can make pain go away very rapidly. I also experienced skipping over fear and preventing emotion immediately creates more intense physical pain.

Lesson: Develop a relationship with God and you can get through anything!
I don’t have a solid relationship with God yet, but even a growing desire sets one in the right direction.

Lesson: Prayer is Powerful. Sincere prayers are always answered. God is good and has my best interests at heart!

It is amazing that crying and releasing emotion has the power and capacity to heal any physical ailment very, very quickly; God made me so superbly that I am able to heal any ailment that is within me with God’s help and goodness.

God never does anything to hurt us. It is us who harms ourselves, us who harms others or others who harm us.

I had a lot of exciting realisations but the pain didn’t go away.

It was not until I ‘gave up’ managing and was prepared to ‘try anything’ (in harmony with Love) that things actually began to change for real. I think I surrendered.

I think surrender is when you get to a point that you are willing to do it God’s way and you let God lead rather than trying to control everything yourself. You just take direction and do the next loving thing and the next loving thing and the next loving thing that is presented to you.

When I did this my Guides were able to help me and Jesus’ ‘voice over’ came into my head with invaluable reminders:

“Pain is a result of unfelt fear. All pain is created by refusing to feel emotions.”

“Do the opposite to what the fear dictates. Do the opposite to what the fear is telling you to do”

“Every time you break God’s Laws there is pain – physical, emotional, spiritual. Find where you are breaking law and fix it by feeling it”.

“It is loving to yourself and others to feel your pain and release it. God designed you to feel, you were made to feel all emotions. Have some courage.”

“it is a choice to hold onto and store your pain. You can make a different choice.”

I thought out loud a lot of things, but in brief it was basically this (I think I finally engaged my will rather than just trying to push through it):

“Okay, I know people who have done this, it can be done, Fear creates pain. What am I afraid of?”

I began with physical things, and did everything opposite to what I wanted to do because I had decided to do EVERYTHING i could think of opposite to what the fear was telling me to do.

My body loosened, my muscles relaxed a bit and my whole body felt different. The only pain left was in my throat and ear. All other pain was gone.

I was so excited, what I had heard about I had finally experienced for myself and know it to be true (in regards to physical pain).

The next day my throat was still swollen and sore, I kept doing the opposite to what the fear dictated. I swallowed normally, and kept on doing it even though it was painful and over an hour or so it was no longer sore.

The abscess was still there but I had no physical pain. It took another five days for the abscess itself to actually go down to a more normal-ish size.

Conclusion:

The emotional experiment with a physical ailment worked!

The truth is that storing emotions is painful and refusing to release fears creates more pain. I know that for certain.

I feel pretty excited to know that you can recover from a quinsy, or any physical illness, as long as you are willing to feel what you feel for real and do the opposite to what fear dictates.

The Next Experiment:

To apply what I did for a physical illness, to my emotional pain!

*More information on Peritonsillar abscesses you can check out the following link or press on the above links near the top of this post:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peritonsillar_abscess

** A great Talk to understand more about the issue of Love of Self: 20090801God’s Laws – Laws Governing Love of Self P1

*** Press here for more info on God’s Truth – Divine Truth.

Jesus Quote, “Clever, Clever God” From what I have observed I am starting to see what he means!

**** Some of these feelings were projected, reminded to me or reinforced to me by my Guides & spirit friends as I still have attractions showing me that I don’t have a heart based knowledge of them. Some came as a ‘voice over’ from Jesus & or Mary in my head reminding me of God’s Truth.

*****Many of the things listed are things I have heard from Jesus or Mary Magdalene. The difference for me about listing them here is that I experienced them for myself and this was the awesome part. Hearing something in comparison to feeling it is quite a different experience. I look forward to learning more through my own experiences.

****** Now it is time to grow my aspiration to feel all the fear/s. I don’t want to end up being like the Croods were at the beginning for the rest of my life

Crying is SO good for you!

Ethical Parenting: Finding Out About Love, Starting With Ethics

Posted on September 13, 2014 by Eloisa

What does it mean to Love our children?

What would love do every moment and in every interaction we have with our partner, with children, with others?

How do we know what love would do?

Have you heard of ‘The Golden Rule’? A Biblical term referred to by Jesus as, ‘treating others as you would like to be treated’. Notice it is not ‘how you are treated, or how you treat others’ but rather how you would ‘like’ to be treated. Or you could take it one step further and say ‘treat others as God treats me’. This is what I understand ethics (very basically) to be. The beauty of ethics is that it is easy and simple to see based on the above premiss: treat others as you would like to be treated, and in most situations this will give a good indication if you are engaging in a loving manner or not.

For me it is a process of discovery about how God treats me. I am needing to unravel a lot of false beliefs about God and have so far only heard the Truths about God not fully experienced them for myself. So I am beginning with ethics, treating others as I would like to be treated. You can do this with or without God.

What does it mean to parent ethically?

I feel we have a heap of double standards as adults especially with children. If we asked of ourselves what we ask or demand of our kids I can guarantee we would be outraged. We would feel controlled, belittled, interrupted, confined, isolated, shamed, unimportant, ignored, entitled, and probably a heap of other things not mentioned here that you probably felt yourself as a child.

I notice often that I treat kids differently to adults.

Grownups when I was a kid said things they didn’t mean, they lied and hid behind ‘nice’ facades which are not really that nice, sometimes downright terrifying. They said one thing and meant another, they didn’t explain, were dishonest and said they knew or would do things when they didn’t, wouldn’t or forgot, they made promises they couldn’t keep. Kids got in the way, were not as important as adults, didn’t get the same attention. They didn’t know what love was because they had been mis-informed and mis-educated about it also. Sometimes I wonder why people have kids if they don’t want to love them, but it seems there are many parents having kids for other reasons than love.

I realise what I say could be very confrontational. I feel it is true though. I have been looking at my own reasons for having children, they were not pure and to love the children unconditionally. I am having to learn how to love and grow a sincere desire to want to love. I have had a screwed up version of love and a screwed up perception of parenting and I am going through a process of re-education. It feels uncomfortable often and I am coming to terms with the fact that I have not wanted to love. Rather I have wanted to be loved, to be cared for, to be seen as a ‘good mum’. I have wanted the children to demonstrate ‘good’ things about me because I have felt so bad inside of myself.

I feel sad about this because it means I have not allowed the children to just be themselves and love them for it. I have demands, expectations and investments in them. I want from them, rather than to give to them. I have manipulated, moulded and groomed them into what I want them to be, to fit my mould, rather than what God created them to be as they are.

At first I didn’t want to see what I had done. I was in a lot of denial (still am on certain issues and subjects). There are many ways to justify, minimise, deny what we have created and what we do as parents, but honestly we need to get real, get honest and see where we are unethical, where we are out of line in the treatment, especially of children, but also our partners and our brothers and sisters (other people) in general.

Many people think it is okay to shame, condescend to, belittle, hit, hurt, abuse, rage at, violently treat children to varying degrees or under certain circumstances. We say it is ‘for their own good’, ‘we have their best intentions in mind’, often we even say it is because we ‘love’ them. We blame children and excuse ourselves for all sorts of hurtful actions, not seeing that it is us who our children are reflecting in the first place and we are punishing them because we don’t want to be reminded and feel our own pains and hurt parts. It is us who children mirror and they highlight our lack of love.

Children learn so amazingly. They lean quickly and they learn from feelings not words. They reflect our true feelings not the ones we want everyone, including ourselves to believe are true about us (our facades – what we want to believe we are rather than what we actually are at this point in time).

We are responsible, we create so much of the pain in our children’s lives*** – especially when they are very young (as they get older they act out upon the injuries created by us and use their will either in harmony with love or out of it – often dependent on what we taught them until they learn or discover otherwise. Even so their actions come from things that we did to them in the first place, because we chose not to forgive our parents for their actions.), we create it by not allowing our own pain to flow and be released. We create it by suppressing our children, by teaching them to be what we want them to be, rather than be who they are as God created them. We teach our children that they are not okay as they are, they need to be something else – something we approve of, and they do that, or they rebel which ever will cause us to feel the most, and often instead of being humble and feeling our feelings we suppress and punish the child some more. What we need to do is to feel. To own how we feel as we feel it and to feel it responsibly, without taking it out on another soul. It is that simple. Feel and heal – without involving your kids, without involving others, just you and God, if you desire. That is how it is done.

We teach children that parental approval is love. I am saying it is not. Parental approval is nothing in comparison to love, it is a substitute and a poor substitute at that, and yet even as adults we are striving for it rather than seeing that the how we would like to be treated and what we would like to feel (love) from others is mostly not what we are receiving.

I feel that a massive, world wide, re-education program is needed that begins with Love – God’s version not ours. We need to re-educate ourselves with God’s Truth rather than the lies our parents and environment taught us as kids and the lies we continue to tell ourselves as grown ups, reinforcing our erroneous childhood educations, that keep us locked up as damaged children. We need to re-educate ourselves first and automatically this will educate our children about God’s Love and God’s Truth through example rather than theory.

If we really want to love we can begin with ethics, we can begin with treating our children as we would ‘like’ to be treated. We can stop controlling them and begin to love them. We can stop shouting at them and withholding approval of what they do or don’t do and be soft with them, teach them about love, self discovery, self responsibility and ethical behavior themselves.

We need to do this through our actions and behaviour not our words. Words are cheap and meaningless when they don’t match the real feelings coming out of us. Being honest, truthful and real is important for real relationships and friendships. To be ethical we are going to need to first be honest and see what we are doing, how we treat others and ourselves and be honest about how it actually feels. So-often we are conditioned to accept unloving behaviour and we come to feel it is ‘normal’ or ‘the only way’ or even the ‘right way’ I am suggesting there is another way (God’s Way of Love) and that we can start right now, with a first step being by simply practicing and treating others as we would like to be treated.

That means stop blaming others, including your children for your own personal pain. For example, stop getting angry at children and own your feelings as yours, find out why you are angry and what you are angry about. I guarantee that you you don’t enjoy people shouting at you, punishing you, condescending to you, controlling you, having double standards and telling you lies so why are we doing it to others, especially children. Children are honest with us, until they are taught otherwise, so why are we not honest with them?

I am noticing that how I was treated as a child is often how I treat children and it is only as I soften to the hurts within me that I am discovering that naturally and without effort I begin to treat our children and others more softly, acceptingly, compassionately. While I am hard and punishing with myself I am also hard and punishing with others.

I encourage you to explore your own behaviours and how you treat your children, I encourage you to be real and self reflective no matter how painful it feels and find out the truth of what you feel, feel it without harming others or yourself and your life will change if you are doing this sincerely. It is beautiful and a gift to both yourself, your children and those around you.

Give it a go, experiment, discover, explore ethics and see what you discover…

* For more information on Ethics and Morality go to the following link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mybby95f3vs

** I say ‘your’ children, though I would like to suggest that they do not belong to you at all, but are rather God’s children and your brothers and sisters. I find it helpful to think about this as I treat brothers and sisters very differently to children who I feel I ‘own’. Children are not property, though we have for many generations believed and told them they are. Children are not to be owned, enslaved, brought or sold. Rather children are a perfect gift born from desire and are the most amazing creation and perfect reflection of our soul condition, where we are at and the areas that we need to heal in love. They are a blessing and a gift and our only ‘job’ is to teach them about Love, God’s Truth and God’s Love, God Herself, and allow and enable them to discover for themselves…

***We harm children by mis-educating them about Love, Truth, God and not being truthful about so many subjects. Including not being truthful about our own feelings and thoughts, creating addictions with children, demanding and expecting of them, inhibiting their freewill and not correcting unloving behaviours in a loving way.

Parents have a lot to answer for. I am also beginning to get glimpses though of what an incredible gift being a parent is and if we ‘parented’ more as God intended it would be friggen awesome all round – that is what I aspire to and get excited about! Children are a gift and a very fast way to learn about love, if you are willing and have a sincere desire to love, in a real way.

Living Systems Create Abundance

Posted on August 28, 2014 by Eloisa

Below are images of the swales that were first dug and planted out at Octoberfest 2011.

Pete has been converting them into living systems, meaning filling the swale part up with matter, including but not limited to:

Cardboard bales – thank you Bunnings Armidale
Windfall branches and pruned and dead tree matter
Biodegradable household waste, including old clothing, paper, green waste etc
Newspapers/paper
Sheep manure
A couple of dead animals
Woodchips
Hay

We noticed during the drought a huge difference in this area to other areas of the property. The grass was greener on the swale banks, it was longer and more lush.There is a heap of fungi growing and breaking down matter within the systems, indicating that moisture is being retained in these systems. Insect life is increasing. Animal life is increasing in this area also. Trees are growing and healthier.

We have noticed that each type of matter breaks down at different rates, attracts different insects and grows different fungi and plants.

Living Systems are awesome. They create abundance when made with love and given to generously when initially set up. We cannot stress enough the importance of Love and giving generously when setting up living systems. If there is no desire to love and no intention to give generously and abundantly to the project you are engaging in with the earth, the results will reflect that, our soul’s are powerful creators.

We feel that Living Systems are a really great way to begin to ‘drought proof’* a property as they hold and retain moisture under the ground and are a food source for the intelligent life that creates soil and keeps the earth healthy at the same time.

The images below hopefully give an idea of what can be achieved in your back yard as well as on a larger scale.

*More on ‘drought proofing’ to come

Foreground: Swale with tree matter, cardboard, wood chips, notice how green the grass on the top edge is. Background: Swale with hay

Swales being filled with Cardboard – we fill up the swales as we collect the raw materials and as our time is available. We would not recommend digging a heap of holes that you cannot fill. Leaving bare, exposed earth creates a lot of problems and potential for erosion. Make as many holes as you can fill, fill them and then create more. Do one at a time if needs be.

Cardboard bales

Sheep manure covering cardboard bales

Living Systems: Hay covering cardboard bales

Living Systems: A living system with cardboard bales, tree branches covered in wood chip

Living Systems: we noticed this awesome fungi growing in the swales that had newspaper and wood chips. The fungi actually grew out from between the sheets of newspaper as can be seen in the next image

Living Systems: we noticed this awesome fungi growing in the swales that had newspaper and wood chips. The fungi is growing out from between the sheets of newspaper. Noticed this happened after the newspaper had absorbed some moisture. Amazing how fungi breaks down matter!!

Photos taken by Eloisa, 20140611

The Great Experiment or the ‘God Game’*

Posted on November 17, 2013 by Eloisa

I want to tell you about the greatest, most beautiful, life changing experiment that I am giving a go.

It is called The Great Experiment. And it is truly GREAT!!! This experiment will rock your world if you engage it with sincerity.

I first heard about this experiment from Jesus. You can try it all by yourself where ever you are in the entire world or spirit world!

This is what you do:

You ask God for some love – as a feeling, with your soul or what you might call a ‘heart felt desire’ or a longing/prayer, like when you really, really want something and you feel it.

Even if you don’t believe in God you can still try the experiment.

The experiment requires you to be truthful with yourself and with God.

So you might not believe in God, or you might think or believe all manner of things about God, this is okay you can still ask God for love and this process will work through the issues that we have with God. Now when you ask you need to be sincere and it needs to be a feeling, so asking from your soul or your heart if you like. Mere intellectual thought and head asking is not going to work very well. But you can try this too to find out for yourself.

Over the last few months I have begun to actually ask God for love (over and over again**), it began as recorded below:

‘Hi God, okay so I don’t think I am that lovable and I don’t know if I actually believe you are going to give me any love but if you do have Love to give me, like I have heard you have, could I have some? Please? (I thought being polite would help, smile, it also highlighted some injuries & fears I have)

I waited.

Nothing.

I said it again.

Nothing.

I got up huffily and went and got busy for a while and then it dawned on me, ‘Ahhh I don’t receive love very well from most people or I am pretty demanding and expectant about it, I have issues with love so I probably need to take a look at my beliefs and feelings about love if I am going to actually be able to receive Love from God’.

After discovering I have issues & blocks to Love I discovered*** that I also have issues with God and so I needed to firstly find out what I really believed and felt about God. As I am longing for God’s Love, both God and Love are worth investigating about how I feel about them so I asked myself some questions.

Self Reflection Questions I wrote down:

What are my beliefs about love?
Do I want to love?
Do I want to be loved?
How does God love?
What is love?
What is God’s love like? (obviously I don’t know personally, so what have I heard about it so far from reliable sources – like Jesus, Mary, friends I know who have experienced God’s Love and people in General who seem to have a love for God and who feel God is loving – I used these as a starting point, I am going to need to feel this out for myself but I needed some positive things to begin with)
What do I see as Love and is it really love?
What do my parents see as love?
What do my friends -past & present – see as love?
What does society and the world at large in general feel about love?

What are my beliefs about God?
What do I really feel God is like?
What have I been told God is like from parents, friends, school, religion, society in general and the world at large?
What is my actual real view of God as I am now, not things I have heard but what do I really feel about God and Love right at this time?
There are heaps more questions that have come up and some I have investigated and some I still need to feel about. Often I revisit the questions as often when I intellectually answer them they are quite different to when I emotionally answer them.

I Borrowed Questions (Mary’s reflection Questions):

“What beliefs do I have about God that stop me asking for the Love?”
“What beliefs do I have about myself that stop me asking for the Love?”
“What stops me longing for the Love all the time?”

Then I tried the experiment again, and again and again and each time I have discovered something about myself through the process.

This began as an intellectual exercise. It is growing into a feeling exercise. A first hand experience of my own, and I reckon that is what it is about, experiencing it for yourself. Not taking anyones word for it but giving it a go for yourself because you want to.

I hit points where I get frustrated as I am not getting any Love – due to blocking it out, and I feel like I am useless and wasting my time and that maybe it is all a charade. I have had self pitying tantrum cries about that and reflected back and this is what I noticed:

Since longing for God’s Love I have noticed more things about myself in the shortest amount of time in comparison to the rest of my life and have also begun getting memories, first intellectually and then with feelings and emotions attached to them a few days after the initial remembering.
Since longing for God’s Love I am seeing that a lot of the issues I thought were God’s problems or others problems are actually about myself and feelings within myself creating them.

Reflecting on this I began to feel excited because longing for God’s Love is exposing all the things that are standing in the way of me being close to God (& ironically to others also). I feel like I have a whole heap of blocks to God and each time I ask for God’s Love I find out something more about myself and the blocks/false beliefs/fears/addictions etc I am holding onto and valuing more than an open heart ready to receive Love.

So I am figuring that longing for God’s love is the fast track and I don’t have to try, it has relieved some of the pressure I place on myself. something comes up every time I sincerely long for the Love and it feels like no effort on my part to find it out or know it, it is just immediately there, instantly. If it doesn’t happen that way now I ask myself if I was actually wanting to know or just intellectually thinking I did.

I am finding now that often I will ask for God’s love and a memory will come and I will have tears, this is also exciting for me as I am re-learning how to feel and re connect to myself having been disassociated for such a long period of time and having been terrified to feel any of my own emotions. I still am afraid of my emotions but I am beginning to check these fears out as well and get specific with my fears rather than just have a general fear cloud that I keep my head stuck in.

I am arrogant and resistant to God and God’s process. I want, and weirdly believe, that I am some how safer and able to protect myself. I realise, intellectually, this is not true and is proved not true so many times each day to me. I have been opening up to more feelings of being sexually abused and I have realised that I am not going to be able to work through those feelings fully without God and His Love, I need God and I find that scary as I don’t want to need anyone. I also have been really demanding of God’s Love and had to realise this about myself as well as wanting God to do the process for me instead of me taking responsibility and wanting to feel through the issues inside of myself with God just along side of me.

Longing for God’s love is one seriously cool adventure and though I can’t say I am always enthusiastic about seeing my true self because I still judge her, I am excited in reflecting back at how EVERY time I have longed for God’s love I have learnt something new, realised something, or opened up to something either immediately or very shortly afterwards (the next day or so). The changes so far in my experiment seem small but they are real, they are mine, and I have even caught myself getting excited about God and wanting to tell people about the Great Experiment, smile.

I haven’t been overwhelmed by God’s Love – yet, but I don’t feel this is because God isn’t wanting to Love me now, I feel this is due to my will and that is keeping God’s Love from me.

I wrote this to encourage you to give this experiment a go. To dive in and try the experiment and keep trying it, self reflecting as you go.

The whole point of the ‘Divine Love Path’ or ‘The Way’ is our relationship with God & opening our soul to receive God’s Love. I feel that I have missed that point and wanted it to be about all sorts of other things. But God & God’s Love is key in this process and experimenting with longing for God’s Love is spectacular. It is exposing, it is immediate – when I want it, and it is real. It is taking an action and growing my desire and will.

It is the only thing that has actually worked and the experiment is so simple and so easy. I have some fears and terrors that I perceive as large and I am realising that if I don’t have a relationship with God I am unlikely to actually feel through those terrors, in fact I know I wont as I haven’t done so yet. So I am experimenting with growing my relationship with God and I will see if that makes a difference with my desire to actually go through the emotions I feel most afraid to feel.

Have fun and enjoy the beautiful process God created for us to become at one with Him!

*******

More interesting Information on the Great Experiment:

Personal Footnotes:

* We were speaking with a group of kids in the spirit world and they called it the ‘God Game’ after they had tried it and they wanted to know why everyone didn’t know about this and why everyone wasn’t playing the ‘God Game’

** I didn’t actually try it for ages because I didn’t think I was good enough or loving enough. I thought if I wasn’t perfect and really great then how could I possibly be given any love, I don’t feel loved by my parents so how could God love me if they don’t? I believed that out of all God’s children I am the one unlovable one, so I just didn’t ask for love instead I tried really hard to be better and more loving. It hasn’t worked which indicates to me I must have something off inside of me, and so I need to investigate that.

*** I had been told this previous but what I found is that when I actually took the time myself and sat down and longed for the Love it was through my own first hand experience that I knew I had blocks to God and Love and I couldn’t pass them off as easily as some moments before.

The Great Experiment:

Interestingly enough I came across a really great transcript and talk Jesus and Mary gave in 2011 while writing this post called:

20110507 Relationship with God: Getting to Know God (given in Melbourne, Australia)
I cannot recommend it enough!! If link doesn’t work it can be found on the Divine Truth Website: http://www.divinetruth.com> downloads>ebooks>Relationship with God: Getting to Know God>PDF>

Also another called: Why we Resist God and there are a whole heap more I am now reading through.

From Mary’s blog:

In the Padgett messages we hear from spirits who show perseverance in their prayer life.

For example, Riddle shares:

And, when I learned that prayer was the only way to this Love, and saw you praying for me with all your heart and in great earnestness, I commenced to pray also; but I must confess that my prayers were not accompanied with much faith. But I continued to pray, and every night when you prayed for me and for the many others who were with you praying, I tried to exercise all the faith possible and prayed for more faith.

This continued for some time, and one day your grandmother……. She assured me that if I would only try to believe, and pray to God to help me believe, He would answer my prayers; and I would soon find that with my earnest efforts, faith would come to me, and with faith would come this Love into my heart, and with this Love would come happiness and joy.

So I listened to her, and tried to believe that what she told me must be true, and that she was interested in me and desired only my happiness. I continued to pray, …..

At last, light came to me, and with it, such an inflowing of Love as I never dreamed could exist, either in the earth or in the spirit world. But it came to me and I felt as if I were a new spirit, and such happiness came as I never experienced before.

The Great Experiment clearly requires patience and perseverance as we develop real faith.

The Greatest Experiment – Letter from Jesus

Posted on November 17, 2013 by Eloisa

The Greatest Experiment

If the physical universe is striving towards order, could not it also be the case that the other parts of the universe, not seen by man, the spiritual and soul parts, the other dimensions proven by mathematics to exist, are also striving towards complete order and harmony, not just in a physical context, but also in a moral and spiritual context?

Would it not make sense that if we desire to know the truths about these things as yet unseen by the eyes of most people in the material world, our highest priority should be to find out how to go about contacting the Source of such things, the Creator of this universe?

To contact Him, all we need do is have a soul longing for His Love, and, if that longing is sincere and we have a desire to experience emotions, then our Father’s Love will flow into us, and we shall feel it. Finding God is simplicity itself, so simple in fact that the majority of mankind, mortals and spirits, overlook the only method we have of ever finding Divine Truth, which is made possible by two things; the sincere desire of a man to seek for and feel God and His Love (which we call Prayer), and the overwhelming Passion of God to give all His Children His Love, and have all of His Children come to know Him and experience the joy and happiness of Living in His Love.

This is the Greatest Experiment, and when any person tries it, the experiment often begins tentatively, but ends in complete certainty. God is Reality, and the Love and Truth that comes from Him is Real. When we try the Greatest Experiment, we at that time also begin to live in Reality.

So my brothers and sisters, live in Reality, in our Father’s Love, seek for it, and desire it above all else. Seek first His Love, and all the other things will be added to you.

Although the contents of this message may be well known to you, I hope that you have enjoyed a reconsideration of this information.

With love from your brother,

Jesus

* Borrowed from Mary’s blog on the Great Experiment. I agree and am posting this so you can actually read what Jesus said rather than just my own version and experiences. I always feel first hand information is valuable and doesn’t get lost in translation or emotional translation, smile. Links to more information below also.

The Greatest Experiment an letter written by Jesus – full version go to link here or below. http://www.divinetruth.com/PDF/People/JesusMary/Jesus%20The%20Greatest%20Experiment.pdf

The Greatest Thing In All The World…

Posted on November 13, 2013 by Eloisa

A message from Solomon, received by James Padgett, 20th April, 1916

What is the greatest thing in all the world?

Prayer and faith on the part of mortals; and Love – the Divine Love – on the part of God. The latter is waiting, and the former causes it to enter into the souls of men.

No other truths are so great and momentous to men.

Let what I say sink deep into your memory, and try the experiment. I know you do try, but try and then try and never cease trying. Love will come to you and with It faith, and then knowledge and then ownership.

I could write for a long time, yet, but I must not as you are tired.

So with my love and blessings, I will say good-night, and may the Father’s Love take possession of you.

Your brother in Christ,

SOLOMON

For more information on Receiving God’s Love, The Great Experiment or the Padgett messages visit either: www.divinetruth.com or http://mary.divinetruth.com/category/the-great-experiment/

Softening…

Posted on October 11, 2013 by Eloisa

I feel this is a beautiful quality that often gets a bad wrap.

I have noticed how often I have heard people being condemned for being emotionally ‘soft’, seen as ‘weak’. How often I/we have been praised for being emotionally ‘strong’ and opinionated (read not feeling my real feelings, numb, not expressing real feelings, stoic, etc). I notice that in Australasian Culture there are many sayings such as ‘go hard or go home’, ‘no pain, no gain’, ‘don’t be a pussy’ (I either think of vagina’s or fluffy cats), ‘toughen up’, ‘tough love’, ‘harden up, go drink a glass of concrete’, ‘don’t be a girl’ (I am one so this has always been a bit disconcerting as it has always felt like there is something wrong with me and half the world’s population)… There are so many and in the past I have either tried really hard to live up to these to gain approval or I have rebelled and been angry about it to avoid feeling the grief, sadness, loss and lack of emotional softness in my environment and self. If I am honest with myself I am really sad about the fact that ‘softness’ and being ‘soft’ is so crapped upon.

I have had some events in my life over the past year that have highlighted just what it feels like to be around people who are ‘hard’ and also had feedback on what it feels like to be on the receiving end of ‘hardness’. I actually allowed myself to FEEL what it feels like. It doesn’t feel good, often accompanied with judgement and a lack of compassion, lack of understanding and absence of love.

I was brought up in a house of ‘strong’ women. I was brought up in a place where harshness was ‘normal’. I didn’t even realise just how harsh and hard my environment was until recently.

I have locked my heart up and been hard hearted. I am beginning to feel the heart of stone that I have in my chest and am beginning to wonder what a heart of flesh would feel like.

A soft, supple, compassionate, real loving, Open heart.

That, I feel, could be beautiful!

So I just wanted to ‘talk’ with you and mention that it is worth softening, to grow the desire to soften: to be softer with self, others, God, my emotions, all the experiences that are within me, it helps.

In my experience:

Being hard hurts, me and others

Being hard puts up walls and creates barriers

Emotional hardness creates separation

Emotional hardness creates judgment

Emotional hardness comes from repressed fear and rage,

Emotional hardness causes pain and isolation

Emotional hardness creates a jail that you convince yourself is a ‘safe’ place when in fact it is dangerous, you can’t feel when you are hard, not even yourself.

I feel I have softened a little, beginning with intellectual decision and sincere prayer which has ended up with changes in my heart. It was just a gradual thing that happened and I could actually feel some compassion I reckon for the first time around some issues. It has been through being treated badly and with hardness – feeling this – and having attracted genuine love and kindness into my life (feeling the comparison of these two feelings), that I have realised what it feels like to be around me when I am emotionally hard. I have seen in others what I am myself. It was confronting and a yucky feeling to own that I have been like that to others and I thought it was okay, ‘normal’ even.

I have seen the effects it had on those who I met and treated harshly, it is not love. I have noticed that what we are exposed to as small children and in the environments we live becomes ‘normal’, no matter how harsh, scary and violent it is. I see that while we remain conditioned and holding onto these crazy so called ‘norms’ we cannot feel what love actually feels like, and we act out what we feel to be acceptable. The process of feeling how it really is has caused me to question a lot of things. I have often prayed for more sensitivity and as it comes I see the stark contrast between what I see as normal and what I am learning about God and God’s love and Way.

I was writing to a friend the other day and have included some of my thoughts below from the email I sent as I feel they relate to this topic:

“I realise that when I am ‘hard’ and judgmental (read don’t want to feel or even own my fear, don’t want to feel my feelings and want to change others instead of myself) that instead of opening up an opportunity to heal it actually closes, shuts down and hinders healing or even realisations in self or another. I see how it is through owning my own feelings and lovingly or even just kindly talking to someone else about things noticed or felt that this can create an opportunity to heal. I see how fear creates such pain, judgement, criticism and distance between my soul and another soul (I also see how I have wanted this in an effort to feel ‘safe’. I don’t feel safe one little bit).

I feel the lack of connection, pain and fear etc between women & women and women & men is a source of pain and sadness for many souls. The relationships we have had with our mothers and fathers, other women growing up have not set ‘healthy’ or loving precedents of how to relate in love, or even be truly kind with others. For me I am terrified of judgement and generally avoid interactions where this might happen at all costs where possible or placate something chronic to get people to ‘like’ me and be nice to me, sad smile, or just throw fear or rage their way and project ‘don’t get angry at me, don’t make me feel afraid and I will do what you want’. I feel I have used this as an ‘excuse’ to avoid or treat others badly. I am realising this isn’t the basis for and doesn’t build true, beautiful, close, growing friendships. It is also not based on Truth as God sees it.

I am starting to feel if we can actually heal each other with kindness and love rather than harsh words and critical gestures this would be a beautiful way forward. I don’t feel I am there yet, my old patterns and addictions come up often especially when I feel uncomfortable and afraid, but I can see now the effects of these states and the pain that both women and men are in (including me) is a result of the actions we each choose to take.

I am realising how much and how many people I push away due to fear.

It is exciting I reckon how change is possible. I have so often felt that no-one changes and no-one becomes different. I am loving how this belief is being challenged at the moment and I am being shown how change is possible and that unloving actions can be healed and even intention begins a desire to heal!”

I cannot say how beautiful it is in the soft moments and the contrast to emotional hardness is very noticeable! I wish you well with softening into what ever the Law of Attraction brings you to heal your soul and become at one with God!

*******

* I am still grappling with being in a place of softness all the time on every issue, I am not there yet. I have gotten emotionally hard over the last weeks due to wanting to avoid my terrors and this is what has highlighted (or glaring showed up) the difference between softening and shutdown/emotional hardness.

Inspiring People: Sebastião & Leila Salgado

Posted on August 24, 2013 by Eloisa

Pete found this interview on YouTube with Sebastião Salgado who is a man with a great story which he is living each day with his wife Leila.

He grew up on his families farm in Brazil that was a 50% rain forested property when he was a child, to a less than 1/2% barren, cattle grazing property that he inherited in later life. Leila suggested they grow the rainforest again when they moved back their. This is their story and link to their own website Instituto Terra (press here).

DEAR GOD…

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