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Self Reflective Parenting – Part 2:

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Sourced from personal Notes dated 20140617

A snippet of what I found out personally about how I feel about ‘parenting’ and some of my experiences and discoveries during that process…

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My life now in comparison to five years ago is different in a few areas, especially in regards to children. I am happier, less tired, have actually experienced joy. I am able to do things I want to do at times. I enjoy hanging out with the kids. I want to. It doesn’t feel like such a chore. I am desiring more and more to teach them to look after themselves rather than being ‘mummy dependent’. I can hold a conversation with someone, our house is not a total mess all of the time now, the kids wash their own dishes – still needs work. They dress themselves, make their own lunches and breakfasts. We go shopping and it takes…

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Self Reflective Parenting – Part 2:

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A snippet of what I found out personally about how I feel about ‘parenting’ and some of my experiences and discoveries during that process…

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My life now in comparison to five years ago is different in a few areas, especially in regards to children. I am happier, less tired, have actually experienced joy. I am able to do things I want to do at times. I enjoy hanging out with the kids. I want to. It doesn’t feel like such a chore. I am desiring more and more to teach them to look after themselves rather than being ‘mummy dependent’. I can hold a conversation with someone, our house is not a total mess all of the time now, the kids wash their own dishes – still needs work. They dress themselves, make their own lunches and breakfasts. We go shopping and it takes half an hour and the kids help – it used to take sometimes two hours and we were the family that everyone wanted to avoid. By owning my emotions, desiring God’s truth about me, becoming truthful with myself and how I feel and what was really going on for me, my life changed in a positive direction!

I feel it is important to find out how I truly feel about things, then I have something real to work with.

I have been ‘out of body’/’not present’/disassociated* (in order to avoid painful feelings) and told myself a lot of ‘stories’ over my life in order to avoid feeling how I really feel. The questions found in ‘Self Reflective Parenting -Part 1′ click here to take you to link,

  • Do I want to change? be honest

  • Do I want to love as God loves?
 If not why not?

I have found useful in helping me to see things I have been resistive** to feeling or even intellectually seeing. With some honest self reflection, the deeper the better, I often find out things about myself that previously I did not see.

Example: For a long time I had a whole ‘façade’*** view of parenting which I spouted out about, with comments about how amazing children are and parenting is. How great my mum and dad had been to me. What an awesome childhood I had. How ‘natural’ motherhood was, how amazing being pregnant was. Along with peoples’ perceptions of me: ‘You’ll make such a great mum Eloisa’, ‘you’ll be so fun’, ‘I wish I was your child…’etc. Wow did I want to believe them because inside I felt completely different.

I had a lot of feelings that felt terrible inside of me, that I actually was aware of but didn’t say when people said these things, like: ‘You have no idea what I am like on the inside”, ‘I feel so terrified of harming people and I am afraid of harming a baby’, ‘I feel helpless when a child cries and will do anything to try and make them okay’, ‘I feel totally inadequate and unprepared to be a parent. ’‘How am I going to cope’. ‘what if it doesn’t come naturally?’ ‘how am I going to protect a child?’, ‘What if a child dies?’ What if I do it wrong? ’What if…’, ‘What if…’, ‘What if…?’ I often felt ‘I need my mum’.


I had so many fears and terrors which ruled me when I was honest with myself, but I skipped over them, didn’t mention them, pushed them aside, minimized them and if I did ever say them allowed others dismissed them quickly and I felt that maybe I was just being ‘silly’. No-one else seemed as worried and terrified as I was so what was my problem?

When I got real with myself and admitted how I really felt it felt pretty confronting & yucky:

  • I wanted children so that I feel loved, I want them to love me. 

  • I want to control them and boss them and make them ‘perfect’ so my mum and dad will 
think how wonderful I am 

  • I haven’t felt I’ve been very good at anything in my life, like my siblings, so maybe I can 
be a good mum (though inside I already felt terrible and like this would never be. My mum has feelings SHE is the ‘best mum in all the world’ and that had been drummed into me – so how could I ever be better than the ‘best’ I didn’t have a chance. I thought ‘maybe I could be okay and at least get her approval.’ 

  • I felt totally abandoned and like I was nothing when our babies were born as everyone gave the children attention and demanded love from the baby and I no longer felt I mattered. I had gotten so much attention for just being pregnant and it was lovely for one who felt so terrible about herself – an addiction. 

  • I didn’t find motherhood ‘natural’, I didn’t feel like I was natural at nurturing and I didn’t trust my own feelings, I wanted my mother’s/women’s approval something chronic. I did what I thought mum/women would approve of. This was terrible for both the babies and myself because I went against my own feelings and I harmed our children emotionally in the process doing things I didn’t feel were right but which got me approval from mum, mother in law, step – mum and dad to a certain degree. 


What I feel and wish I had done, wish I had known about in caring for a tiny child, is to let them cry but don’t punish them, they are expressing the sadness and grief and unhealed emotions, anger, shame all sorts that their parents are suppressing & denying and the general environment around them is suppressing. I encourage you to Love children as God loves**** and feel your own pain for yourself, by yourself & with God in a self responsible manner*****. Your pain is your pain & your responsibility, not your child’s responsibility. I wanted someone else to feel my pain for me. So it fell on our children to do so through my demand and lack of ethics & lack of personal responsibility.

If I had not been so self absorbed and I had wanted to Love for real, I could have felt my own stuff rather than avoiding it and forcing it onto the children and my environment. I was in denial, projecting – gushing – my emotions outwards at the world and everyone in it. I didn’t want to know myself and I wanted others to take away my pain or feel it for me. I can see now, this is very damaging to children, partner, and those around me.

I suggest to feel about how you feel when your child/ren is distressed, angry, scared, just feeling or being emotional. Instead of trying to ‘calm them down’, pacify them with food or entertainment (which will create addictions in the end), Allow them to feel how they feel. Allow yourself to feel how you feel, allow yourself to really feel the feelings you have about what is going on and have the courage to feel what the emotional causes are without blaming the children or others.

When you are owning and feeling your emotions and they are the real thing you truly feel in that moment, that is the time that you are doing the least amount of damage to children and other souls. I noticed when I hit on the true emotion our children would stop acting up/out, stop demanding etc and completely change from ‘out of control’ while I was in denial or ‘out of body’, to quietly and contentedly playing when I was owning my emotions. It was incredible to experience.

Children are such a gift******. When we understand what is really going on, you understand just what an amazing gift they really are, because you can see ‘oh, here I am refusing to feel how I feel again’, Or ‘something is going on for me or my partner or both of us because our children are reflecting back to us disharmony of some kind. Lets find out what that is’. You have an immediate feedback system that is obvious and undeniable.

After a time when I had realized some of my own individual issues and the children were less influenced when I was on my own, I noticed that whenever Pete and I would be together things ‘ramped up’ or got more intense. We realized over some time that when Pete and I were together there was a lot of feelings we were in denial about between each other and because we were not willing to feel them the children reflected them to us, where as when we were on our own the dynamic was different.

I encourage you to stop blame children, see that anything that is happening in your life is an opportunity for YOU to learn about love. Anything that is going on for the children in your life is as an opportunity for YOU to learn something about yourself and refine yourself in Love from God’s perspective.

Contrary to popular belief ‘being strong’ is actually a place where you are self responsibly 100% emotional.

If I had my time again I would hope I would let the children express their emotions freely, particularly if they are fed, changed and have had their physical needs taken care of. I would take the time to just sit nearby, so they know I am near and work out what was going on for me, allow myself to feel my distress, my helplessness, the overwhelming feelings that are exposed and grow the passionate desire to feel all the things I felt as I felt them. Having children is an opportunity to learn so many things, including humility and how to truly love as God loves us. This takes us growing a passionate desire to love, and to know what is really going on from God’s perspective rather than our own, consistency, personal honesty, humility, taking action in a positive direction and faith in the process God has perfectly designed. All these qualities you can develop if you so desire.

Self reflection questions to let yourself feel about:
 Parenting and children

Be honest with yourself about how you really feel and why you had children.

Everything you are suppressing will be reflected to you by children & the environment, children are perfect reflectors

  • How do I truly feel about being a parent? (all aspects)
  • How do I truly feel about children? (all aspects)
  • In regards to the Law of attraction, children’s behaviour etc, ask:
  • What is my part in this?
  • Am I being impacted by this behaviour? If I am then there is something for me to look at 
and to heal from Love’s perspective
  • How did God intend parenting/child rearing and childhood and children to be? (check out the 
FAQ’s of Jesus and Mary) I don’t know this myself for certain yet, so can’t speak from experience, but you can find out from the following sources
  • Divine Truth Website: divinetruth.com 

  • Divine Truth FAQ’s:
  • Divine Truth YouTube Channel
  • Often we allow kids to get away with a lot more than we would let ourselves or other adults get away with behaving in the same way ( look at why & your beliefs around this)
. OR We often treat children much more harshly than we do ourselves or other adults or a combination of both or different subjects.
  • Example: We think it’s totally okay to assault children when we’d never do that to an adult. Smacking a child, hitting them, aggressively and angrily yelling at them etc and we justify it as ‘discipline’. This is far out of harmony with God’s love and how God treats us. 
Violence towards anyone is violence and it is unkind, hurtful and comes from a desire in yourself to harm others rather than feel your own pain.

I suggest feeling your own pain as it comes up and as you feel it. When we put things off they just get bigger and worse. God made us to feel and we are perfectly equipped to do so. We may not have the confidence or desire in ourselves and if this is the case we need to grow the aspiration to do so if we are really going to love.

*’Out of Body’: I label it this because this is what it feels like. It feels like your body is walking around doing things and you am not there, not present, not feeling or really aware of what is really happening around you. It feels like I have vacated and ‘gone’, or watching a ‘movie’ of your life rather than living and participating in it. Sometimes I couldn’t remember how I got to places, I had total blanks where I just was not there.. That is what it feels for those around you also. They can’t feel you anymore and they are not sure where you are. For children this is very unsettling and scary because they can’t feel you. I had experiences where the children would cling to other women’s legs when I was out of body because they couldn’t feel me anymore.

** Resistive: this is a feeling of resistance to what is going on. It feels exactly like that, pushing against something. It is a refusal to feel something and can be an angry feeling, a fear based feeling but generally has some anger to it because it is a refusal to feel. Sometimes emotional resistance is so strong it feels solid. It is immovable. It feels like: – imagine arms crossed, feet planted ‘I’m not going to and you can’t make me’ feeling. There is no surrender or softening in that place, no room to find out new things or feel the things that are there in the first place. When someone is resistive there is not much you can really do until they get out of that place.

*** Façade: something we make up for ourselves and or others to present to them because we feel that what we really feel or think or what is truly is underneath is not good enough or we fear sharing our real self, real feelings, real thoughts etc. It is like the façade on a building, it looks pretty but you get in behind it and it is totally different to what is being presented.

****(you’ll need to do some personal research on this)

*****you might need to research how to do this too- I recommend God’s Way as taught by Jesus & Mary, information can be found on their website as the only way that creates real, permanent Loving change

****** Children are always a gift and it does trouble me that we treat them so badly. I still have grief and guilt that I choose to sin rather than deal with my emotional pain personally and responsibly. Though children are perfect reflectors and can help us see so much about ourselves, it is not their responsibility to do this. IF we really loved we would be dealing with issues before others were affected by them, or if we didn’t recognize this we would definitely be doing so as soon as they were reflected to us. What I notice is that there is a tendency to ‘put things off’ and this goes often for parents who justify, minimize, dismiss, ignore or blame the child for the way they are feeling rather than just allowing themselves to be honest and feel what they feel.

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God’s Way of Education Introduction.

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I wish to give an impression of who I am, why I really want to be a part of this God’s Way of Education and why people should trust God’s Way of Love to create such a framework to teach and engage children and families.

This is the biggest subject I care about, which I know can be addressed with much more love than it currently is:

At the moment education for our youngsters is missing something. They are not actively learning how to actually treat themselves or others lovingly, nor how to be emotionally responsible for how they feel. There are no current widely recognised lessons for this, no state or federal framework for this sort of education.

It seems to actually be something that families are expected to provide when, at best, parents are often trying to learn about these things in their…

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Self Reflective Parenting – Part 1

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I ‘re-discovered’ an outline from some years ago (20140617) that I wrote up in regards to a presentation on parenting I would like to give. I feel really passionate about improving myself as a parent and I thought that others may find the notes useful.

The purpose is to encourage self reflection and self discovery in regards to parenting.

I am excited to share my experiences in regards to experimenting with becoming a loving ‘parent’ from God’s perspective.

I am finding that sincerely engaging God’s Way is the fastest way to change the family dynamic in a loving and lasting way! I know this for certain and recommend God’s Way (more info at the links below) wholeheartedly!

I suggest checking out Jesus & Mary’s website: Divinetruth.com for detailed information as this is what my experiments are based on. Also while a relationship with God is developing, or is non existent, depending on where you are at, the resources Jesus & Mary have and are sharing are very inspiring & helpful in opening one up to and beginning an investigation of understanding in a lot of areas, particularly the Truth about God!!

Quote: We have to seek for Truth if we are ever going to find it. – Jesus

Part 1

Introduction: Why look at parenting?

There is so much information on parenting out there, (much of it based on punishment and reward), yet often it doesn’t work or it promises ‘quick fixes’ that don’t work long term and don’t actually find or deal with the reason/s why events happen & issues occur between adults & kids (kids & kids, adults & adults) in the first place.

I have been experimenting with Principles of God’s Truth or Divine Truth as presented by my friends, Jesus and Mary Magdalene and these do work and do have lasting positive effects, some immediate, all long term and lasting – when you fully engage the principles involved with your soul rather than your mind. Taking an action without a soul change is not going to be lasting change – ever. ‘Trying is lying’ (as Mary says) – I know, I have tried.

Making positive change will take sincere desire, effort on your part, feeling emotions and a passionate desire and longing to love as God loves- which you will need to grow a desire to do. You can do it with God or without God. I’ve heard with God is faster. This approach is not an overnight fix, it is a life long adventure and a way of life/living – that works. Once a change is made in your soul, it is an forever change on that particular subject.

An exciting change for me is how I feel inside myself and about myself. It seems as my opinion of myself actually grows for real, my life becomes more enjoyable. It makes a wonderful change and I feel more desire to love and get to know others without effort. I haven’t had to ‘try’ and it hasn’t been ‘hard’ when I have made real changes. Things seemed to ‘just happen’ quite smoothly.

I feel excited to have found a way that works and is improving my life in every area – including my relationships with my partner, kids and everyone in my environment in a real way!

Quote: Your soul condition determines your happiness in your life… it determines what you attract in your life to yourself and it determines how rapidly you grow…. It determines what accidents you have, what sicknesses you get, and what love life you have. It determines everything about your life. – Jesus

Please feel free to ask questions at any time by emailing me or going to the ‘Contact us’ page and if you are uncertain about any terminology I use please let me know and I will explain.

I would like to share with you some of my personal experiences of engaging God’s Laws and Principles of God’s Truth and the super positive affects they have had in my life with my relationship with children. I want to share these as I’ve found them to be positively life changing! Being honest with myself about how I feel has in some cases made everything instantly better, and even intellectual realisations have helped me understand what’s going on rather than feeling totally helpless. Ignorance is not bliss.

I will be sharing only about things that I have actually experienced.
There are many things I do not know yet and many areas I have yet to have experiences in.

When I speak about God, much of it is based on Divine Truth and what I have heard from Jesus and Mary, I am experimenting for myself at the moment. I don’t know a lot about God myself yet. I am excited about what I am discovering.

I am beginning to see that being a parent is a gift – an opportunity to learn about love, God’s Laws, Gods way of loving. I’ve heard that, the reason God had children is because she had a desire to love them. That is it.

If we do not have a pure desire to love our kids – we need to look at why. Having children is an opportunity for each of us to learn how to love in a pure way. To give to a child in a loving way rather than addiction, neediness, demand, expectation etc.

The unhealed emotions in your soul creates the behaviours your children reflects to you and you attracted the perfect personality (of the child) to expose and heal the error in your soul. If we are humble having children can teach us so much about love.

The process I am engaging is about me. Dealing with my unloving behaviour. In dealing with my stuff first it automatically creates change in the children without having to say a thing. To really love we need to begin by looking at ourselves. We need to take personal responsibility for our actions, feelings, emotions and thoughts and look truthfully at what our soul created and attracted. It is examining through God’s Laws: the Law of attraction the behaviour your child is reflecting to you. Children are not ‘bad’ or trying to be. They are often acting out behaviour and sometimes they have no idea why they are doing what they are doing. They are not calculating (when they are small) they have to learn to be manipulative from their environment. You might feel they are manipulative but they are actually just reflecting something in you and/or being influenced by spirits to do something. As they get older the behaviours & feelings you allowed, encouraged or modelled to them become habits, addictions, normalized and children then act out of these rather than their ‘real self’ – nature and personality God designed.

Quote: ‘Every problem external to me has an internal reflection in myself’ – Jesus

I feel we need to take more self responsibility as parents and rather than blaming innocent children and damaging them by being unloving we need to have courage and humility to see and feel our own pain and the damage from our childhoods and be prepared to feel in order to change and heal the injuries fully without involving children in the process.

Actively choosing to harm a person, taking our pain out or on (our) children or suppressing them from feeling because we personally don’t want to feel is unloving. Our sadness, the rage we have, any emotion we personally have, is not because of a child, they didn’t create it in us. Our parents and/or childhood environment did, as did theirs before them, so if we’re going to be angry it needs to be with the people/person responsible. Not an innocent child

We need to be honest with how we feel, take personal responsibility and take it to God, if you do need to express it, express it to the person/s responsible not someone else and not at someone else.

Truth is powerful!
 Shared with a genuine feeling of love it is life changing!

There is no justification for unloving or harmful behaviour – so find out why you want to act on the unloving behaviour especially towards children, so you can truly change it. This is going to take self reflection and sincere desire to look at yourself ‘warts and all’.

We need to look at why we are willing to harm children, especially those in our care, or ‘our’ children. (For me I have a feeling I own them and they should do what I tell them. I feel I have a right and I justify that I do it because I ‘love’ them. But actually when I have examined my feelings closely I am not often in harmony with what God sees as ‘right’ and loving. I am very much out of harmony on many subjects and the treatment of children is one of these areas).

I feel that what most parents view as love is actually addiction. It is about what they can ‘get’ emotionally from a child not what they can give, and parenting doesn’t involve much unconditional love.

I have noticed, Violence begets violence, or creates terror which creates violence or allows violence in the end. Me being angry, the kids learn to be angry too and they learn thorugh my modelling that it is acceptable – they act it out towards each other. E.G. hitting each other. I don’t like it when they do this, but it is happening and I need to look inside myself as to why as well as taking loving action (restraining – more on this to come) and talking to the kids about violence and how it is out of harmony with love.

Self Reflection Exercise. Ask yourself:

  • Do I want to change? be honest


  • Do I want to love as God loves?
 If not why not?

Be honesty about how you really feel about these things, really reflect on these questions emotionally, then things can change. If you are not honest with yourself nothing will change.

Often things you want to avoid or fear end up happening – this is the law of attraction at work to expose the unhealed emotion and to give you an opportunity to feel about it and heal it so you never do it again…

If you heal the causal reason you’re doing something in the first place rather than continuously deal with the effects lasting, positive change happens. (The causal reason being the real, emotional reason that drives you to do what you do, feel how you feel, think how you think etc)  .

Now is the perfect time to feel and engage a process of growth and change to heal and become more loving. There is no point putting things off because they only get worse. I know from experience… So experiment with your feelings, address any issue right now, in the moment. Now is the perfect time.

I encourage you to try something different, try feeling or at least being truthful with yourself about how you feel, truly, inside. Stop blaming, own your stuff and experiment!

Start with where you are at.

Investigate and feel, grow a passionate desire to feel everything…

Quote: Every time I avoid an emotion inside of myself and avoid the responsibility of feeling it (them) then we project those outwards onto the universe and we damage other people in the universe. When we feel them inside of ourselves then we can grow. – Jesus

 

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Positive Benefits

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I notice that Jesus & Mary always help us to see and understand the benefits of applying Principle’s of God’s Truth to our lives and I am seeing how this helps to inspire personal desire to try stuff in my own life.

This blog is just to share how awesome I feel it is when I do have a go at applying Principle’s of God’s Truth to my life, or even have an intention to do so! (I am presently going through an excited patch of discovery, smile).

A few of the benefits I have discovered of experimenting with honouring God’s Truth, having an intention to live in harmony with God’s Laws and aspiring to Love as God Loves are as follows:

You learn HEAPS about yourself (your whole soul – as you open up to it), others, children, God; actually as much and about as many subjects as you are open to at any given time

You grow to accept yourself more, especially if you have compassion for yourself. You grow to feel happier, you have more energy, you want to explore and discover more, you find out things about yourself that were ‘forgotten’, not realized yet, or squashed that you love and enjoy doing. You feel the contrast between this state and living in fears, anger etc so it becomes a shorter time to recognise what’s going on.

Desire grows and there are SO many exciting possibilities and things to do that it is matter of prioritizing to fit them all in

Even when you are emotionally challenged you begin to realise that it is an opportunity to change or try something different

As I begin to become more sensitive I am seeing that physical & emotional pain is within me all the time and that releasing it is a relief. (Still areas that I am very challenged by and in denial about)

If I just stick to God’s Truth and Love, amazing things become possible.

You begin to actually learn what love is, and God’s version of love from what I observe is a relief & SUPER lovely, kind, compassionate, gentle, caring, so many qualities that are beautiful. Feeling the difference between God’s opinion of you and the world’s/your parents/others negative opinions of you is intensely sad,

You begin to see things more clearly (this seems to periodically happen and I go ‘wow, I didn’t even know what Jesus & Mary were talking about (I thought I did, but I just didn’t), and this happens over and over again on the same or similar subjects are more awareness grows)

I got some inspiration that God made there to be an infinite amount to learn, but instead of feeling terrified about that all the time, it becomes exciting and a matter of just working through the fears and absorbing everything we possibly can and if we are blocked to doing so finding out why so we can learn more. It is a good thing our souls are made capable of such expansion & potential.

Beginning to trust in God’s Goodness changes your outlook on life remarkably

Your relationship with your partner has the possibility to improve with the possibility for exponential improvement IF you desire that

Your relationship with your kids improves MASSIVELY, I have felt real love for them (at times) which is different to all the addictive demands I have

When Love and Truth become your motivators rather than self interest – this makes for a smoother home life and less angry, violent, conflict between yourself and others

As you become more sensitive you can see more clearly what is going on rather than responding to effects all the time, you begin to look for causes and deal with those, life gets simpler and less exhausting

Lasting, permanent positive change is possible

You don’t have to ‘try’ all the time when you make soul based change, things feel smoother and you either do it or you don’t. Work out why you don’t want to and feel about that, then you probably will want to.

Even having an intention to change brings positive outcomes

Opportunities to Love are EVERYWHERE, we just have to want to see them and act upon them

Truth sets you free – it lessens fear and opens up possibilities that you never previously considered. Things that felt impossible become possible

Being in harmony with God’s Laws you feel more secure & safe & confident because God’s got it covered and you just need to learn the way it all works, and because God is good you begin to trust that God’s got your back and you just need to do the next thing and the next thing and the next thing God presents for you to release, experiment, learn and discover about ( I look forward to this being consistent in my life)

A sense of excitement and wonder at God’s creations and the process God has made for every one of us to engage if we desire to be fully happy and fulfilled and perfected in love as God loves which I can only imagine is AMAZING!!! ( I haven’t personally experienced this process to being at-one-with-God but I suspect that it just gets better and better based on my experience so far)

Seriously, there are just so many benefits that seem to be revealing themselves and the more I experiment the more I suspect that there are only expanding, exponential benefits because so far I haven’t found any disadvantages in anything God does!

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Construction Ideas & Inspiration

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‘Donut’ design (thanks to Jesus for sharing this concept & idea with us)

Pete and I get excited about experimenting with construction and various ways to make buildings/dwellings.

Our friend Jesus is an awesome ideas person, designer & problem solver and in a conversation some months ago was discussing with us construction ideas and speaking with us about design ideas and Love based principles in Construction. I made up some very basic concept drawings and paper mache initial concept designs to have a look in 3D (these are not to scale) what the ideas may look like.

Below: Concept models of possible layouts and ideas for the ‘Donut’ Design.

Our reason for sharing the concept designs publicly is firstly we felt so excited and inspired by the possibilities and ideas and secondly we are interested if you have any information, ideas, thoughts or inspirations that you desire to share in regards to construction,  please contact us through the ‘contact us’ page (press on link) or via email

We would love to hear about ideas in any areas, including but not limited to: concept development (additional ideas & inspirations you may have from seeing these designs), engineering (taking into consideration the below criteria – bullet points) particularly ideas to do with catastrophes including earthquakes, new and interesting materials that you may know about to use in construction, new power sources & people doing interesting experiments in these areas, waste management etc.

Jesus has discussed and spoke about some areas to look at when designing and creating buildings. Some (this is not an extensive list) of the qualities that we found inspiring are as follows:

  • Research, Planning & mini experimentation is SUPER important
  • Are lovingly designed, functional, economical, long lasting, least environmental impact as possible, made out of materials that creatures don’t want to eat and recycle
  • Standardized, so that they can be put up in all manner of places with similar design and materials used. Or with minimal modifications can be built in all climates and terrains.
  • Take into consideration environmental factors and function both in summer and winter
  • self sufficient
  • Simple – in design, to construct, to live in
  • Micro climates able to be created in the center of the ‘donuts’ to support an entire community with food produce and other essential materials, no matter what the climate or terrain.
  • Are able to withstand extreme weather conditions, natural disasters and earth change events such as: floods, tornado, hurricanes, earthquakes, extreme fires,
  • Can be constructed for reasonable cost out of materials found locally, if not literally on site where possible
  • Can be added one piece at a time
  • energy efficient, everything efficient
  • functional and support those who live in them, physically, in their desires & passions, lifestyle
  • Waste management – everything that is can be goes back into land regeneration

If you do desire to share please keep in mind that if you have ideas and find information it is most helpful to have it summarised and investigated thoroughly before sharing it, with sources sited (so others can find the info easily). Personal ideas & experience are welcomed. If you feel like sharing with us we’d love to hear from you.

“Donut” design:

Each section is individually created (see below) so that they can be made separately and then joined to the next one as needed. So that each new ‘unit’ was built it could be added to eventually form an entire ‘donut’.

Each ‘unit’ would have privacy as it faces away from the other and it would also mean any maintenance or repairs could be carried out by removing sections and replacing them if needed.

Tetrahedron shape could be used as square sides may be more cost effective in the short term.  Edges are square but form a ‘circle’ when all added together next to each other. This would lend itself to the same ideas as the ‘donut’ in making it in parts and able to replace and repair parts without damaging the whole.

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this ‘conut’ complex could have a 20km diameter and potentially house 20, 000 people depending on design. It could also be 2 km wide, or as wide or small as suits the requirements

Top view (above) Could build this in sections at different times as needed. could have facilities such as schools and auditoriums. Due to being built in sections each one is able to be removed and repaired if needed without demolishing the entire structure. Potentially could house 20,000 people all with privacy, abundant food and awesome living conditions. This could be 3-4 levels high.

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model of apartment/separate living space ideas for individual sections. These are not to scale

‘Donut’ design cross section (below).

  • water storage/sewage underground.
  • covered with hydraulic system that can lift the roof to enable air to flow
  • under cover part is created to be a consistent temperature in order to grow food all year round. Particularly good for very cold environments.
  • This design is a four story ‘donut’ design which would include homes, school, halls, meeting space, areas for creating e.g. making clothes, cooking/kitchen areas, market type areas, creation spaces.
  • Walkways could go all around the inside in order for people to easily get about and enjoy themselves. In this design view faces outwards. Depending on size could face inwards to enjoy the gardens, pools, various other beautiful features.
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cross section of ‘donut’ construction idea (not to scale)

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Cross section of ideas for ‘donut’ design with retractable dome over middle section for food growing/food forest, natural beauty area and mirco climate. (Not to scale)

2km – 20km or more distance in middle. Could actually build a ‘donut’ around a hill, or encompassing rain forest (see drawing concept below).

Due to the design being made up of sections could make it over time as funds become available and the desire or need for it grows.

Could have earth built up on outsides with grass/plants growing up over it. ‘Donuts’ could have view facing into the hill/forest. or could do it opposite way and have view facing outwards.

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build the ‘donut’ around a hill encompassing rain forest. Creating a ‘bio dome’ where many things could grow in a micro climate. (Not to Scale). Part could also have earth over it for strength and durability.

Some Advantages:

  • Can build on any terrain as it can ‘mould’ around hills, through forests etc.
    has great Privacy as each section’s outlook is viewing nothing in front of them, all have a  view, all connected
  • walk ways internally/externally so that it is easy to get around without damaging areas
  • less land taken for housing
  • more economical resources & money wise
  • self contained
  • private while being part of a community
  • self sufficient – food, waste, etc
  • incorporates everything needed with least amount of damage to environment.

Would eventually like to have levitation/vacuum suction devices to get around in instead of cars and roads. Could have communal transport so that everyone didn’t need their own vehicle – e.g. levitation ‘train’ to whizz about around the grounds etc (I don’t know about the higher laws of love or how this works yet, but I love the idea).

Using materials such as earth bricks could mean you do least amount of damage in smallest area as using onsite materials – needs further investigation

Above are some ideas of layout designs (not to scale) and window options. Could have retractable window shutters, and ability to have various ways to help protect the building from earth change events, or extreme weather events. The design would be such that there is very little modifications needed but can be made anywhere in the world. Retractable coverings to shut out light or protect from extreme weather events.

Other ideas:

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Above, idea of having a central domed pod in the middle with curved ‘pod’s’ radiating out from the middle. Based on ‘Nissan huts’ idea in Australia. Could also do this with covered shipping containers.

Would suit a family or could have it as four families all with back of pods joining central area where food/kitchen/eating area. (can design all sorts of things)

Rounded shaped buildings (below). Probably strong, but individual. These could have earth over the roof and use aeration ducts through the water storage area to keep them cool and moderate temperature.

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Consistency

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This is a quality worth developing.

I have led a life of inconsistency. Of being swayed every which way and all over the place.

My ‘no’s’ have not meant ‘no’ my ‘yes’ has not meant ‘yes’.

I have not wanted to be consistent with the kids, Pete, myself or in my life in general. I have had to use A LOT of will power to even attempt to be consistent which has taken a lot of effort to maintain for very short periods of time and then I have fallen back into inconsistency again.

Recently I found out some of the reasons why I haven’t wanted to be consistent particularly with Pete and the kids, the main one being if I am consistent with them I have to be consistent with me also otherwise I am being hypocritical.

Truth be told I have WANTED to let them ‘get away’ with stuff and be inconsistent because I have wanted to get away with things myself. I have wanted to have an ‘out’ or an excuse to be unethical if I want to be, or if I feel something is ‘too hard’ I have actually wanted the excuse to sin or be unloving.

The problem with this is that it causes A LOT of negative consequences. It creates a lack of safety, security, certainty. It creates sin and pain emotionally which often ends up becoming chronic physical pain due to avoiding the chronic emotional pain. It also honours fear above love and truth which NEVER turns out well.

I have been experimenting with consistency on and off for a while now, but the last months, I have focused on it far more than previously and I found something really awesome.

When I am consistently truthful and do what Love dictates consistently, my life is enjoyable. I feel pretty good inside and I feel genuinely positive. This is new for me. But what I reckon is happening is that when I honour these things as much as I possibly can in every area that I can see, I am working more in harmony with God’s Laws and even though I have not made the full emotional changes it is improving my life.

There are so many positive benefits for living in Truth, aspiring to Love and working with God’s Laws rather than against them. I aspire to do this consistently rather than periodically.

God is a master of consistency, which means that I need to embrace this quality too.

Consistency is a key ingredient to real happiness.

 

Healing Experiment: Peritonsillar abscess (Qunisy) & Cool Stuff It Showed Me About God

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In June I had a Peritonsillar abscess or throat abscess also known as a quinsy*.

I have been reflecting on the experience and feel it has helped me to begin to build some faith in God.

Being ill helped me to see a few of the incredible gifts of God’s creations, His perfect design in how he created the human body . The Truth that all physical illnesses are created from a refusal to feel emotional pain.

The exciting bit is that if we are willing to feel emotionally I believe all disease is curable. In fact disease is a feedback system to try and get us to actually feel and work through issues at a soul level rather than a physical one.

So what is a Quinsy?

A peritonsillar abscess or quinsy is a bacterial infection in the throat.  It generally involves a pus-filled pocket that forms on or near one of your tonsils. (Thanks to Google for this definition & wikipedia for the image  on right side below).

Below is an image of the abscess on the day after the pain had ceased. Unfortunately I didn’t get a picture of its development or when it was at it’s greatest size. It was really interesting, at one point pushing the dangly thing in the middle right over to the other side on a 45 degree angle, (see sketched image lower down).

My throat on the day after it felt better, I hadn’t thought to photograph it till then. At it’s worst it was pushing the hanging down thingy in the middle on a 45 degree angle to the other side
Thanks to Wikipedia for the image
My throat on the day after it felt better, I hadn’t thought to photograph it till then. At it’s worst it was pushing the hanging down thingy in the middle on a 45 degree angle to the other side

Background:

In my 20’s I experienced my first Quinsy. I had a tendency to refuse to emotionally or verbally express how I felt or say aloud my real thoughts and feelings. In the end the denial & emotional build up was so great that I ended up in hospital with the throat abscess being lanced – cut and drained – on an IV drip for fluids and antibiotics for four days and antibiotics and heavy painkillers. A couple of months later it reoccurred a second time and the whole process was repeated.

Symptoms (some):

  • Pain in throat, neck & face
  • You may have a super migraine
  • seriously bad breath
  • ‘hot potato voice’ you can’t talk properly and it sounds all weird like you have a mouthful of something (you do, an abscess).
  • it is so painful to swallow you end up drooling everywhere or spitting out your own saliva & waking up in a pool of it on the pillow. I had a container of saliva each day to dispose of.
  • It is hard to sleep due to the pain
  • swallowing hurts. Taking in fluids or solids hurts so you avoid it if possible.

Present Day:

This time I had a bit of an idea about what I was in for physically. But I set out to experiment with emotionally healing the issues that created it in the first place rather than just physically alleviating the pain. This involved a totally different approach and enabled me to avoid medical intervention and the side effects of prescription drugs.

Motivated by physical pain, which was a result of denied and suppressed emotional pain, (refusing to feel my grief about lack of love of self** and my personal reinforcement of that) I did an experiment.

The ‘experiment’ took 8 days till there was no pain at all and another five for the physical abscess to go down fully. Five or so days were just pain management and trying to get away from the pain, hoping that it would ‘get better’ and 3 or so were more sincere days which really made the difference (they kind of overlapped and I had various experiences and realisations during the other days that contributed to the more emotional ‘productive’ three days).

The most important part of this experiment was making a Will based decision to feel emotionally – whatever it took – and have a sincere go at doing it God’s Way . It was the soul based decision to give it a go God’s Way that created all the positive things that followed.

I experimented with things I had heard in the Divine Truth teachings*** and tested them out for myself. This was a really awesome experience and I absolutely recommend it. I now know for certain through my own experience that denial, refusing to feel how I feel & holding onto emotions makes you sick, causes illness, and releasing emotions (feeling) helps you to heal.

I have added some of my observations and things learned during the illness below. Some feel quite firm in me and some I feel I need more time to allow them to fully sink into my soul****.

I am really grateful to Jesus & Mary for all the information and personal experiences they  share publicly about their relationship with God and feeling through emotional issues. I don’t think I would have experimented as readily without their suggestions.

 

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I did a drawing as I didn’t get a photo of the development of the quinsy. It went from nothing to at it’s peak pushing the dangly thingy int he middle to a 45 degree angle to the other side. I didn’t think to get a photo as it hurt so much to open my mouth. Wish I had ‘cos it was really interesting.

 

The Process of Healing:

The Abscess grew larger and larger until it took up more than half my throat within 24 hours (see above image).

Lesson: Token chats with God, bargaining with God and hoping for ‘magic’ doesn’t make you better, it is just a way to continue to avoid the real issues and highlights the lack of desire for real change. ‘Surviving’ and ‘managing’ pain does not make it go away. Avoiding the real reason why you are ill in the first place causes you to stay sick & in pain.

I tried to manage my pain in all kinds of ways which didn’t work.

I came across a talk 20090801God’s Laws – Laws Governing Love of Self P1 Near the end Jesus speaks about the throat area storing grief. I allowed myself to sob.

Crying and releasing stored emotions is the most effective antibiotic that I have ever experienced. It is a marvel at how crying heals (feeling emotions) physical & emotional pain. I noticed that it involves both emotional and physical release when you really sob

I have a slogan now: “ As long as I keep crying about the real issues, everything is going to be okay”

I reminded myself ‘IF you release the casual emotion the pain will no longer be there’. Lots of things I reminded myself during this experience I didn’t know to be true for certain, I just held onto the possibility that they might be true.

I reminded myself of the Truth, that every time I break God’s Laws there is pain. So I must be breaking God’s Laws, I just needed to find out how I was breaking them & where.

I reminded myself that God was already trying to show me, so logically there must be something in me preventing the recognition of it. I then examined my denial and resistance to knowing God’s Truth. It always comes back to me and where I am out of harmony with Love – which means I can do something about it. YAY!

Lesson: God’s Truth is a relief! God’s Truth is always loving. God’s Truth helps us heal, it is the anecdote to fear. Find the Truth emotionally and you can begin to heal anything physically. Sincerely desiring God’s Truth on any matter highlights the contrast between God’s Love and our own error.

The more I prayed the more I felt  about how my unloving choices are making me sick – literally – and how they affect & harm others negatively. Harming myself does not just harm me. It harms my WHOLE soul and it harms others around me, either by educating them that they can treat me badly and get away with it which harms me and them, or by reinforcing people treating others badly.

I had a few more good sobs – real sobbing I found is different to pain management crying. It can make pain go away very rapidly. I also experienced skipping over fear and preventing emotion immediately creates more intense physical pain.

Lesson: Develop a relationship with God and you can get through anything!
I don’t have a solid relationship with God yet, but even a growing desire sets one in the right direction.

Lesson: Prayer is Powerful. Sincere prayers are always answered. God is good and has my best interests at heart!

It is amazing that crying and releasing emotion has the power and capacity to heal any physical ailment very, very quickly; God made me so superbly that I am able to heal any ailment that is within me with God’s help and goodness.

God never does anything to hurt us. It is us who harms ourselves, us who harms others or others who harm us.

I had a lot of exciting realisations but the pain didn’t go away.

It was not until I ‘gave up’ managing and was prepared to ‘try anything’ (in harmony with Love) that things actually began to change for real. I think I surrendered.

I think surrender is when you get to a point that you are willing to do it God’s way and you let God lead rather than trying to control everything yourself. You just take direction and do the next loving thing and the next loving thing and the next loving thing that is presented to you.

When I did this my Guides were able to help me and Jesus’ ‘voice over’ came into my head with invaluable reminders:

“Pain is a result of unfelt fear. All pain is created by refusing to feel emotions.”

“Do the opposite to what the fear dictates. Do the opposite to what the fear is telling you to do”

“Every time you break God’s Laws there is pain – physical, emotional, spiritual. Find where you are breaking law and fix it by feeling it”.

“It is loving to yourself and others to feel your pain and release it. God designed you to feel, you were made to feel all emotions. Have some courage.”

“it is a choice to hold onto and store your pain. You can make a different choice.”

I thought out loud a lot of things, but in brief it was basically this (I think I finally engaged my will rather than just trying to push through it):

“Okay, I know people who have done this, it can be done, Fear creates pain. What am I afraid of?”

I began with physical things, and did everything opposite to what I wanted to do because I had decided to do EVERYTHING i could think of opposite to what the fear was telling me to do.

My body loosened, my muscles relaxed a bit and my whole body felt different. The only pain left was in my throat and ear. All other pain was gone.

I was so excited, what I had heard about I had finally experienced for myself and know it to be true (in regards to physical pain).

The next day my throat was still swollen and sore, I kept doing the opposite to what the fear dictated. I swallowed normally, and kept on doing it even though it was painful and over an hour or so it was no longer sore.

The abscess was still there but I had no physical pain. It took another five days for the abscess itself to actually go down to a more normal-ish size.

Conclusion:

The emotional experiment with a physical ailment worked!

The truth is that storing emotions is painful and refusing to release fears creates more pain. I know that for certain.

I feel pretty excited to know that you can recover from a quinsy, or any physical illness, as long as you are willing to feel what you feel for real and do the opposite to what fear dictates.

The Next Experiment:

To apply what I did for a physical illness, to my emotional pain!

 

*More information on Peritonsillar abscesses you can check out the following link or press on the above links near the top of this post:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peritonsillar_abscess

** A great Talk to understand more about the issue of Love of Self: 20090801God’s Laws – Laws Governing Love of Self P1

*** Press here for more info on God’s Truth – Divine Truth.

Jesus Quote, “Clever, Clever God” From what I have observed I am starting to see what he means!

**** Some of these feelings were projected, reminded to me or reinforced to me by my Guides & spirit friends as I still have attractions showing me that I don’t have a heart based knowledge of them. Some came as a ‘voice over’ from Jesus & or Mary in my head reminding me of God’s Truth.

*****Many of the things listed are things I have heard from Jesus or Mary Magdalene. The difference for me about listing them here is that I experienced them for myself and this was the awesome part. Hearing something in comparison to feeling it is quite a different experience. I look forward to learning more through my own experiences.

****** Now it is time to grow my aspiration to feel all the fear/s. I don’t want to end up being like the Croods were at the beginning for the rest of my life

 

 

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Crying is SO good for you!