Written By Peter Lytton-Hitchins

God …

 

Nearly everyone on the planet has an opinion, thought or feeling when this one word is mentioned.

 

A traditional schooling and New Age parents meant the young child in me dismissed God from a very early age. Natural love, Peace and an Indian Avatar were my mainstay. If in trouble or needing help very rarely did God get a foot in the door.

 

So now in my 36^th year for the first time God is now taking centre stage. How does one have God as our mainstay, our leader, our real companion and “best friend”. My desire is to share our journey from self dependence/reliance to the ultimate place of God reliance. In such a place real truth, humility and pure love would be always present. Addictions and injuries will have gone, fear and terror will have melted away and passions and desires would be plentiful.

 

So Dear God; I desire to be humble and open to feeling and experiencing your love and connect to the real me.  I desire to emotionally connect to my Soul and Soulmate. To be vulnerable and trusting; emotionally open to processing my injuries and blocks; living in my passions and desires.

 

Love and Gratitude

 

Peter

Help us to Truthfully share some of our emotions and experiences while growing in love for You, God. 


Nervous, afraid, unworthy, exposed, inadequate. These are the feelings that are at the top of a mountain of feelings for me beginning this blog. I have felt judgemental at times of ‘bolggers’ and wondered how anyone would have time to actually read what is written and who would want to anyway?
 
Recently those judgements have been turned on their head and I realise that it is my own fears and inadequacies that I am projecting onto others and then judging. It is actually me who feels that no one would want to spend time on me or read what I have experienced. And maybe they don’t and wont.


Over the last few months I have become one of ‘those blog readers’ that I judged. There are a couple of blogs that I wait for because they are such gifts. 


This blog is a beginning for me, to open my true self to the world and share that as it unravels and unfolds. I don’t even know who my true self is yet, I am coming to terms with the Truth of what is held emotionally in my Soul and what I have yet to emotionally realise and release. I am beginning to FEEL and not intellectualise, justify or minimise (and many more avoidance adjectives that can go along with these too). I am beginning to TRULY want God and to feel the Love God has for me and to grow my love for God. I am beginning to want God and to have a relationship with God. In growing my desire for God I am also growing my desire for myself- my whole self, both halves of this one soul-, to actually know who I am at a soul level. Not just the ‘good’ bits or the nice, pretty bits, as I judge them. But the raw, wounded, ugly, stinky bits too. 


So this is the beginning…


Love Eloisa