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Parts of the Same
I found some images I did a long time ago (2004)… They feel somewhat relevant for me at the moment.
A Gift
Thank you for the gift of your time and your talents!
We had such a fun time and hope you did too!
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| it was pretty misty |
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| and frosty |
Thank you for your time and for coming ‘on tour’, smile!
It was cold in the woolshed, but nothing like good warm clothing and couple of gas heaters!
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| John and Kate |
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| John, Kate & Jesus |
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| Josh |
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| Fabio & Jesus |
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| The Band – John, Josh, Liam, Kate |
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| we did some dancing all rugged up – some even in ski gear, smile. |
We hope to see you all again soon!
Feeling Drop
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| Feeling Drop From God, Our Guardian and Our Guide/s. |
The Start of a Journey…
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| ‘Thought Drop’* |
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| ‘PROTECTION’*Dear God, I pray for the courage to take these actions and allow your protection. Love Eloisa My Dream…. |
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| ‘Beginning my journey on the Narrow Way’ |
*Inspired by Jesus’ talk: 20100327 Coping with Spirit Influence P1 & P2. THANK YOU!!
Who Am I?
I have been asking this question a lot lately. Who Am I? Who am I in God’s eyes? How does God see me? How does God treat me? Why do I not do the same – or at least aspire to do as God does?
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| The Facades I juggle. Which mask do I wear? When? Why do I choose to do this? |
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| Why am I so confused about me? Who I am? How do I tell when I am conditioned to feel how others feel rather than my own feelings. What are my own thoughts? |
Reflections on Love III
I am a creation of Love! Born to love, give and receive love!!!
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Reflections on Love II
Images that came as I self reflected on Love after reading Mary’s blogs on Love:
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| I lock my love up in a ‘cage’ and allow none in or out so often. Why do I cage (my) love?… Prevent it?… Deny it? God made me to love, made me from love so |
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| Made to Love!! Made of Love!! Made From Love!! There IS Love within me!! |
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| This one had a number of ideas all at once behind it…
The Love Yoyo. How I yoyo with giving Dressed up in love. ‘love’ on a pedestal. |
Beginnings of an Investigation
I am beginning to explore and investigate why I am afraid and terrified, rather than just accepting it as a fact that ‘can’t’ change. What makes up my terror and how come I want to hold onto it and protect it so much? I would like to acknowledge that I still have not released it -yet- and that I have not even fully experienced my terror. BUT I feel there has been a teeny shift in the direction that IT IS POSSIBLE. I used to think it was IMPOSSIBLE and now having intellectually been telling myself some painful Truths and also beginning to open to seeing the effects that my fears and terrors have on those around me I feel I have more motivation to at least take a step towards challenging them.
Dear God,
I pray for courage, humility and Faith and Trust in You to allow my terror and be willing to experience it.
I still feel it is going to be a process and I will see how I go.
I had some ‘image downloads’ that showed me a bit of what I am like with fear.
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| This is me terrified showing you how HUGE my wall of terror is. I can’t even open my eyes I feel it is that big. If I did ‘open my eyes’ (Uncover the TRUTH) I might get quite a surprise that it is possible to actually feel through and get over it because it is JUST another emotion. |
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| Some terrors/false beliefs/false expectations appearing real that make up my wall of terror. |
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| Due to the fact that I live in my terror and keep my terrors so close to me, ‘protecting’ them. It is very hard for me To actually see beyond them. It also prevents me being open and loving and I sacrifice those around me in order to Protect it. If only I’d put my hands down (submit and surrender to God) I would no longer have the wall of terror. smile. |
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| Living in my wall of terror. I sometimes feel there is no escape. That is a FALSE BELIEF. |
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| Protecting my wall of terror/error. Rather than challenging it, acting in love and feeling my way through it brick by brick. |
A little story that came to mind in images:
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| I meet someone. I say how I feel (if I am courageous in that moment). The feeling coming out of me is: ‘Don’t attack me, don’t attack me, I’ll do whatever you want just don’t attack me’ (not a loving projection! And a huge expectation and demand upon the other person) |
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| Then… Emotionally I ‘hide’, shut down, go out of body, or literally I hide, or ‘have’ to leave. Rather than staying open emotionally and FEELING whatever it is that is there to feel. (This is protecting my terror and false beliefs that I am going to be ‘attacked’. If I stayed open felt it and cried I am beginning to believe I would heal a lot faster.) |
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| Sometimes I run and don’t look back. But when I am brave I then take a little peek (feel) to see what has happened and if what I expected to happen has (I take a breath and feel how I feel)… |
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| Or see if I need to hide again. Which often I want to do, and do again. |
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| Or to see if I am going to be wrong this time and surprised. Did I ‘prove’ my false belief and add another brick to my wall of terror, or has the Law of Attraction changed for me? *********************** |
*The wall of Terror is borrowed from Mary. A really helpful talk I found was, 20100822 The Human Soul: Emotions and Addictions. Available to be downloaded as an MP3 from the Divine Truth Website
Love Radar
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| Love Detective-ing with the Love Radar |
DEAR GOD... 