That I feel Love and am open to Love.
But on reflection I am not.
I am tentative about Love.
I am cynical and sceptical.
I bow to fear and anger more readily then I stand for Love.
Yet I cling to love. Or the idea of Love, the hope of Love.
I cling to the times when Love has been demonstrated to me. To the encounters I have had that have caused me to feel the Truth and how much easier it was to feel while being loved than through the experience of anger or fear. This was REAL Love!
I remind myself:
Love is powerful
Love is real
Love is stronger than fear and I am open to feel when love is present.
If only it was always that way
If only Love ruled each moment permanently in my life. (It can so why don’t I let it?)
The Truth is Love does rule!
But I am busy focusing on my fear and rage and that makes it hard for Love to flourish in my life.
I trot over Love, I dismiss the times Love has ‘crumbled my stone heart to sand**.’
I am so busy looking through my telescope focused on negativity, evil, bad, pain, that Love might be right next to me and I miss it or don’t recognise it as it Love, or often don’t even want to see it.
I want to protect the pain and hurt, anger and fear.
|So busy focusing on other things than Love.|
It was recently reflected to me is how often I get on my ‘high horse’ about Love. How I ‘decide’ what is and what is not love (read ‘love’ as meet my addictions and make me feel good equals love). Often I am riding over real Love in pursuit of addictive love. I also judge and condemn in the name of love.
What if I didn’t doubt Love?
What would my life be like if I stood for Love above all else?
What actions would I take and how would it feel to live with Love Ruling in MY life?
*** Thank you again Mary for asking the questions:
‘what do I believe in? Love or fear?’
‘Do you ever doubt the ultimate power of love over evil?’